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♥ Saturday, November 24, 2007 ♥

I'm fuacking sick.
**** it all luh.
I'm just feeling so unloved,
so sickened,
so unreasonable,
so stupid.

i fweel UNLOVED= cause of boyfriend
i fweel SICKENED= cause of boyfriend
i am UNREASONABLE= cause of boyfriend
i think i'm STUPID= cause of boyfriend

I'm sorry,
i ain't blaming anyone here.
IT'S just me and my sorry, sick state i'm in.
Just look at me.
I'M A BIG MESS.
fuack everything.
trust boyfriend to not spare a thought for me
even when i'm so sick.
FUACK LUH.
and he says i expect alot from him huh.
BOYFRIEND, i fuacking don't expect anything
from YOU.
all i'm asking is that you spare a thought for me,
your girlfriend.
In case you forgot,
i am your girlfriend
and it's apparently your priority to make me happy?
but whatever,
i can't care less.
SORRY abt the things i said.
It was on impulse k.
I'm angry with you but you
know it's only for awhile
and you should know when i'm angry i
tend to say alot of things that
i don't actually mean.
So please try to understand me love.
haiz...
I have no idea what i'm saying.
Just hope you enjoyed yourself going cycling as your darling
girlfriend was suffering and sick in bed at home.
Sometimes, i feel like
i should just walk right out of your life
so i don't have to hurt you anymore.
And each day i feel more afraid to be with you
cause i know the longer i'm with you
the more i'm gonna hurt you
So sometimes i feel like I should just leave.
But you know I won't leave til you tell me to.
You and I both know the truth,
that I could never bear to leave you.
So if I ever do,
please rmb,
It's not cause i'm being selfish or anything,
it's cause i just don't wish to hurt you further.
I'm so afraid of being the one to always hurt you.
I'll hate myself if I ever hurt you badly.
I'd really hate myself to death.
Because I love you too much to even wanna hurt you.

No matter how much I say it can't really express all
My feelings.
I don't know anymore.
I'm just afraid of hurting you or losing you.
I need you.

♥ i love you boyfriend


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