ELL-OHH-VEE-EE , LOVE

♥ Friday, November 30, 2007 ♥

Fool,
i am a mere fool
nothing more and nothing less.
There is nothing more to me
than this foolishness within.
My being on this world,
living and breathing,
makes no difference to this face of the earth.
The only way I find meaning in life
is through YOU,
my love, my life, my everything.
You taught me how to fly even with
broken and worn out wings.
You made me see my importance in this world.
And also you made me feel special,
needed and wanted all at the same time.
As the tears rolled down your cheeks,
I finally understood
how much I meant to you.
I love you,
and i will never leave you,
at least just not right now.
I promise that I will only leave
when you ask of me to.
Otherwise I see no point and reason
for me to leave your side.
Let me accompany you
and chase away your lonesome
for as long as I can.
Let's cherish this time, love.
Just you and me.
We can make more of this than we could
ever imagine it to be.
I love you.

- ♥ little miss smexy vampire zombie ♥ -

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

5:55 AM

♥ Monday, November 26, 2007 ♥

Helloooo uber ultra sexaye imbeciles like myself,
good morning.
I'm in a it's-time-to-study kinda mood.
Never in my entire life
have I been so darn excited to flip
random pages in NEW TEXTBOOKS
and actually read through and UNDERSTAND everything.
If baby doesn't mind,
tmr when we go out i would like to bring my Literature book
along to go to a nice quiet peaceful library to
just relax and STUDY.
hopefully he knows how to entertain himself.
Cause i honestly don't think he'll find
"How to Kill a Mocking Bird" interesting at all.
But yes,
people i am studying.
BUSY BEE!
and soon will start on MATH TUITION,
which i am also ultra uber psyched about.
No don't worry I haven't become a bookworm!
Well, at least not yet right.
Just hope my eyesight stays as perfect as it is.
I prefer it this way.
Clear Vision makes me a Happy Girl.
And my recent attitude has
been much much better.
Well, i think.
Better then last time,
at least there's improvement
and who says
there's no more room for some MORE improvement
cause i assure you
there still is plenty room left.
HAHAS!
yessa...
I have to plan outings with the ppl i said i would meet up
with this hols but haven't got a chance
to meet up with them yet cause
i'm too darn busy with shtuffs.
-Aileen
-Eileen
-Huiting
-YanLing
-Lisa
-Winnie
-Ben?

Idk.
But well, i'll just wait & see.
This week's schedule can allow me to see one group off people,
which is most likely
aileen, eileen and huiting.
GO WATCH movie i hope.
Must ask aileen and eileen if they'll be FREE.
heh! xD
SUNDAY is now OFFICIALLY temporarily unavailable.
LOL!
so yeahhhh.
OUTINGS~!
have to plan all before the holidays are over.
& Jin's idea of going cycling at night
IT'S AWESOME,
but dangerous too.
cause i'm a girl after all and my mum might not allow it.
Haiz...
SADDDD.
but i'll try persuading her,
cause i'm all thumbs up for the idea.
Although i'll truly feel like
a GUY,
it's okay...
i ain't all that of a girly girl anyway.
TSK.
what kinda girl did you take me for?
lmao...
So anyway,
i'm sort of onto audition again.
wakakaka~!
i know i said i wouldn't play again...
But well,
i can't help myself.
GAMES ARE ADDICTIVE.
i swear.
my fingers start randomly
"pressing" buttons in air.
ALL OF A SUDDEN sometimes.
i think i'm a weird person
other times i just think that i'm different that's all.
But right now i feel like i'm
SPECIAL!
yeahhh, that could be it.
alright that's all for now folks.
ABT the rest of my day?
i told you,
STUDY STUDY STUDY.
maybe you should too,
one day you might actually grow some brains.
LOL!

peace out this shytz yaw
-♥ little miss smexy vampire zombie ♥-

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

7:29 PM

♥ Sunday, November 25, 2007 ♥

I'M GONNA MISS YOU MY SEXAYE BOYFRIEND! xD

alright,
people i am taking a small teeny weeny minor break
from my darling boyfriend.
WHY?
because i need to change my nasty attitude.
haha.
Yes,
well i think all the talk has really knocked
some sense into my head
i feel awesomely better now.
I'm definitely gonna be good.
I've been a spoilt little brat for far too long.
It's time for me to stop
putting the blame on everyone
& venting my anger on other people.
I should take it out on myself.
I was really being a bitch.
SORRY for the immature-ness
& for all the insults and criticizing
and degrading.
I'm truly sorry luh guys.
But i'll be better!
I promise.
TRUST ME.
heh! xD
i'm not a bitch luh,
so why was i acting like one?
I really don't know what got into me.
So sorry luh...
Okay enough.

I'm gonna give myself til wednesday to think through my wrongdoings
and search for the inner chi hidden deep within my soul.
Let's start by doing some breathing exercises shall we?
Breathe in... *inhales air* Breathe out... *exhales air*

WHEEEE! xD
i'm gonna be better.
YAY!
not gonna be a mean bitch anymore.
Don't worry luh.
*smiles*
JAN'S BACK HOORAH!
hip hip...
HOORAYYYY!
well you don't seem too excited...
YOU BETTER BE!
nyahahahaha~!

JAN signing off.
PEACE OUT THIS SHYTZ YAW.

♥ i love you boy

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

4:46 AM

♥ Saturday, November 24, 2007 ♥

Happy Happy 14th Birthday Pearlyn daddy! xD
I love you so.

I have nth much to say.
I just woke up this morning feeling pretty sore at the throat.
I almost wanted to Jab a freaking chopstick right
in the middle of my throat.
And i almost slashed again! How foolish of me.
Depressed, and what do i turn to?
SLASHING MY FUACKING WRIST AND FOREARM?!
that's not the way,
i have to control my fuacking self.
What the hell is wrong with me.
I know i'm afraid that i'll lose him and all,
but why am i so depressed?
To the point of me wanting to hurt myself again.
I'm tired of abusing myself time and time again...
I'm really stupid aren't I.
But anyway,
I DID NOT SLASH MYSELF.
there isn't any fresh wounds to see anyway,
only the old scars.
UH HUH, there's my proof.
So don't worry abt me BLOGGY.
i'm fine.

I AM FINE, JUST SICK IN THE MIND.

tralalalala~!
boyfriend doesn't want me anymore i think.
But i don't blame him.
I've truly been a direct pain in the butthole.
i apologised.
But still a thousand apologies could never make
up for all my mistakes.
But anyway,
all i can say is i'm truly sorry.
I can't change who i am,
you can't change me,
you can't change who you are,
I can't change you.
But all i know is that i really honesty do Love you dear.
It's all you need to know.

♥ i love you boy

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

6:45 PM

♥ ♥

I'm fuacking sick.
**** it all luh.
I'm just feeling so unloved,
so sickened,
so unreasonable,
so stupid.

i fweel UNLOVED= cause of boyfriend
i fweel SICKENED= cause of boyfriend
i am UNREASONABLE= cause of boyfriend
i think i'm STUPID= cause of boyfriend

I'm sorry,
i ain't blaming anyone here.
IT'S just me and my sorry, sick state i'm in.
Just look at me.
I'M A BIG MESS.
fuack everything.
trust boyfriend to not spare a thought for me
even when i'm so sick.
FUACK LUH.
and he says i expect alot from him huh.
BOYFRIEND, i fuacking don't expect anything
from YOU.
all i'm asking is that you spare a thought for me,
your girlfriend.
In case you forgot,
i am your girlfriend
and it's apparently your priority to make me happy?
but whatever,
i can't care less.
SORRY abt the things i said.
It was on impulse k.
I'm angry with you but you
know it's only for awhile
and you should know when i'm angry i
tend to say alot of things that
i don't actually mean.
So please try to understand me love.
haiz...
I have no idea what i'm saying.
Just hope you enjoyed yourself going cycling as your darling
girlfriend was suffering and sick in bed at home.
Sometimes, i feel like
i should just walk right out of your life
so i don't have to hurt you anymore.
And each day i feel more afraid to be with you
cause i know the longer i'm with you
the more i'm gonna hurt you
So sometimes i feel like I should just leave.
But you know I won't leave til you tell me to.
You and I both know the truth,
that I could never bear to leave you.
So if I ever do,
please rmb,
It's not cause i'm being selfish or anything,
it's cause i just don't wish to hurt you further.
I'm so afraid of being the one to always hurt you.
I'll hate myself if I ever hurt you badly.
I'd really hate myself to death.
Because I love you too much to even wanna hurt you.

No matter how much I say it can't really express all
My feelings.
I don't know anymore.
I'm just afraid of hurting you or losing you.
I need you.

♥ i love you boyfriend

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

3:42 AM

♥ Wednesday, November 21, 2007 ♥

today went down
all the way to boonlay to meet JIN dear again.
I have this addiction to SHIHLIN'S chicken.
JIN says maybe they put cocaine in it,
he said he wouldn't be surprised
if tomorrow he goes down to get some.
LOL! xD
baby and me are addicted.
HOOKED ON CHICKEN IN A WAY YOU NEVER COULD.
tralalala~!
today wasn't much interesting.
IT rained over at jurong again.
SADLY.
it always seems to be raining when i'm there.
THANK god i had,
SUPERHOODIE !
wheeeee! xD
the amazing superhoodie to the rescue.
WHEN I NEEDED SHELTER FROM THE RAIN,
HOODIE YOU WERE THE ONE THERE FOR ME.
i don't need no stinkaye UMBRELLA,
i got my HOODIE oodie oodie oh oh oh
LOL! xD
yes that's what i'm talking bout yo.
HEHE.
i despise little creatures that appear to look like ants
but apparently are not.
I'M RANDOM
sorry, it's just me.
NEWS JUST IN,
the ice cream job thingy is like so packed,
people keep wanting to work
so like no space for me and Huiting to work.
I FEEL LIKE CRYING.
hope tmr can work.
I NEED MONEY.
really badly...
TSK.
i miss the days when i had money.
NOW I'M REALLY REALLY BROKE AS HELL.
gosh,
i need boyfriend to provide for meh alright.
HOPEFULLY he even has enough for
himself.
Which i doubt he does.
SO forget about that oh-so-wonderful plan.
DAMMIT LUH.
wheeee! xD
i'm HIGH.
i played audi
and sickeningly i failed my licence twice.
YOU KNOW WHY?
cause the friggin laptop is so fucking LAGGY.
like shytz i tell you.
CAN'T STAND IT LUH.
bloody fuck shyt.
*cries tears of sorrow*
I am miserable,
cause i'm down with FEVER,
thanks to my bloody throat infection.
THANKS UH.
~no prob~
FUCK no one talking to you la.
~wadeva~
SHUT UP already.
~suit yourself~
are you trying to annoy me?
~how can i when you're annoying yourself~
WTF you ain't making sense!
~yeah, i'm making lots of DOLLARS~
oh great! WHAT A JOKE. i'm actually laughing.

sorry.
WOOPS
i needed to self entertain myself.
BUT ANYWAY,
getting to the point.
I AM SICK.
fever-ish and very sick.
THROAT hurts like hell.
NO MONEY TO SEE A DOCTOR,
and too scared to tell my mum i'm sick
or she'll kill me,
and i won't be able to go out.
NYAAAA~!
i'm dying.
AND boyfriend's not here to save me.
I FEEL LIKE CRYING LUH...
BAHHHH!
this is the worse ever luh.
IT SHUCKS EGGS.

i am sick.

SICK AS HELL.

i'm fucking sick.

DAMN THE SICKNESS.

i'm super duper sick.

SUPERMAN THAT HOE.

i'm still sick.

SUPERMAN'S A BITCH.

cause i'm still damn fucking bloody ass SICK.

up your piehole superman.
I DON'T NEED YO shytz no more.

I'M OUT YA'LL
peace~

♥ i love you boyfriend

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

9:04 AM

♥ Tuesday, November 20, 2007 ♥

Fuck It,
i haven't been updating in awhile
cause i'm getting bored.
HAIZ.
i have no idea what to say anymore.
My blog posts aren't getting anymore crappier.
I loved the crap
i used to be able to produce.
NOW i just can't people.
I CAN'T.
and i'm fucking hell sorry okay?

Well anyway,
yesterday was pretty fun.
I went all the way to boonlay
from hougang just to see JIN dear.
We didn't do much but just hanging around each other
is like loads of fun.
I LOVE OUR CRAPPING moments,
and how we fool around.
TSK TSK.
and the tickles,
and his ever so retarded face makes me smile.
HAHAS!
wo0tz.
so the day went by just me and him
around his house area.
TRALALALA~!
nothing much to say here.
THEN we went to eat pizza hut! xD
i was longing for it.
BUT NOW I AM BROKE.
T.T
fuckit all.
MY heart pain luh.
BUT STILL I WAS CONTENTED.
with FOOOOOOOD.
yippeeee!
>.<
Then had to go home after,
I footed the bill.
HAHA.
(see i'm so kind, treat my bf)
anyway,
went home.
RAINED AT HOUGANG when i got out
of the station
i started getting depressed,
just staring and the water droplets
trickling down the window panes.
FUCKIT.
thankgod JIN called me to ease the boredom.
TRALALALA~!
wheeeee...
then went home,
bathed
and then played audi with JIN dear.
that little noober.
HAHA.
JAN PWNS JIN'S BUTTHOLE FOR 100000000~ GOLD.
woohoooo!
yupp yupp.
THEN i went off to go to sleep.
Haiz.
I might be seeing him again today.
ALL the way at boonlay there again.
CAUSE apparently baby is grounded for a whole week.
HOW NICE.
whatever, it
was partly my fault anyway.
I BLAME ME.
Nyaaaa~!

i'm off now probably gonna play audi,
improve my chaining skills yo.
Wo0tz! xD

i
am
out

PEACE HOMIES!
wakakaka!
;LMAO
rofl...

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

6:57 PM

♥ Saturday, November 17, 2007 ♥

Happy Birthday To Me,
Happy Birthday To JAN,
Happy Birthday dear JANA...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
(yes the "people" mentioned above is none other then yours truly, MUA!)

Gratias to all zee peeps who zwished zmee a zhappy birthzay.
Hi, i'm Pereira Andrea Jana
and i'm from france (i wish).
Well, it's my birthday so if I say i'm from france,
then damn it I AM FROM FRANCE.
so yeah.
ANYWAY,
thanks to ppl who remembered my birthday and
actually took the bloody effort
to wish me a very happy birthday.
I LOVE ALL YOU PEOPLE.
you're the ones that put a smile on my face,
especially darling Jin my sexy monkaye of a boyfriend.
Just kidding baby,
no demoralizing for today right.

I am finally fourteen so here are 14 things i've learnt so far in life,

1.Never trust your pet, especially if it's a rabbit.

2.Never watch porn without using earphones, cause someone might
walk in on all the action and sound effects.

3.Never talk back to your mother, cause you'll only get twice the nagging
back in your ears, believe me the sound is terrible.

4.Don't trust a guy unless he signs a legal contract to watch your ass
constantly and never lie to you EVER.

5.Don't make empty promises to people if you don't want them
to make empty promises to you.

6.Smile like you mean it and don't fake one just for
the rest of the world to see.

7.Buy things that are neccessary, most of the time.

8.Manage your budget well and keep your money in a safer place called,
the BANK rather then to keep it under you bloody pillow.

9.Keep secrets close to yourself and don't share it with
stupid people who blab it all out.

10.Don't call people a BITCH in public unless you want them
staring at you with their "big" ugly eyes.

11.Wear shirts with words people can barely understand,
that is if you want the attention.

12.Boyfriends are good accesories, if you know
how to use them the right way that is.

13.There is such a thing as love at first sight, the experience
is a magic undescribable beyond comprehend.

14.Love is blind. And no one is perfect, til you fall
in love with them.

SO all in all, Happy Birthday to Me,
Pereira Andrea Jana.

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~

You've been cordially invited to crash the party over at pasir ris park,
area 3 pit 43.

Invitation sent out by,
None other then the one and only motherducking princess,
Me,
yes Pereira Andrea Jana.

The birthday girl is in the hiss house.
AND now
she's abt to be out yo.
PEACE OUT HOMIES.
i know ya feelin' meh.

LAUGH OUT LOUD.
i can still be such a funny kiddo on my birthday.
GOSH,
i'm the number one contender.
NO one,
i repeat.
NO DUCKING ONE
can replace me!

wakakakaka~!
HATERS PLEASE LEAVE IMMEDIATELY.

(i'm not stuck up it's just a big joke)

if you wanna take my words seriously then it's your problem,

so if anything offends you,

it's your problem.

And if you feel insulted after reading this,

it's just your fucking problem.

Tralalalala~!

Sayonara people.
I'm off to JAPAN.
yeahhh right.

I ain't got no money,

I ain't got no car to take myself on a date,

I can't even buy myself flowers,

but i know i'm my own perfect soul mate,

talk to myself.

Wo0tz.
if i'm hilarious make some noise,
if you're prettaye make some noise.
Cause we got it from our MAMAs.
ALL THIS FUCK RIGHT HERE,
WE GOT ALL THIS SHIT
FROM OUR MAMAs.
(blame the mothers why don't you)

i ain't no fucking whore,
this is just a freedom of expression.
if you don't like me,
don't bother talking to me.

Okay, i'm done with this shytz.
I'm out ya'll.
LOVES! xD

happy birthday to jan again.

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

10:34 PM

♥ Wednesday, November 14, 2007 ♥

First month anni!
was like super uber fun and sweet luh.
I LOVE BOYFRIEND.
time really passes,
but each day i'm with you it feels
like as if we've known
each other forever.
The closer I get to you.
The more i finally can feel what love
really is.
& the way we found each other was rather
weird and un planned for.
Through a friend was how we
got to know each other.
Never thought me and you would
end up together.
I thought it would be just one simple
meeting with you
and that's all i could have and nothing more.
But look at where we're at now.
The first time we met,
i didn't say this to you,
But when we parted i really felt
like i missed you alot too.
You were constantly on my mind,
every second from that day on.
and i kept denying the fact that i was madly
in love with you.
I thought, how could it be?
We've only met once.
WE couldn't be for each other could we?
But as the days went by,
my love for you grew stronger.
AS i stood next to you,
my hard beats a little faster.
And after all that we've been through,
just look at where we are now.
It really is just me and you.
Yeah i thank god we found each other.
Cause there's no one else i'd rather be with now.
Baby,
you make me feel special,
like no one else has ever made me feel.
I'm happy to have you around me too.
all in all,
i just really love you.
I think this love is for real and it's definitely true.

No matter how they toss the dice,
it has to be.
The only one for me is you
and you for me.
So happy together.
I can't see me loving nobody but you
for all my life.
When you're with me baby the skies will be blue
for all my life.

[this song means like alot to me man, & it's damn nice]

Artist: Colbie Caillat
Song: Bubbly

Lyrics:

Verse 1:
I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place

Chorus:
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

Verse 2:
The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under the covers stayin dry and warm
you give me feelins that i adore

Chorus:
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

Break:
What am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmmmmmmm

Chorus:
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

Verse 3:
I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

Chorus:
It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go...

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

7:42 PM

♥ Tuesday, November 13, 2007 ♥

1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged

Favourites
Colour: Black, red, white.
Food: peppermint chocolate truffles
Song: Colbie Caillat- Bubbly
Movie: You got served, Stomp the yard, a walk to remember.
Sport: Cycling.
Day of The Week: Saturday
Season: Winter, Spring, Autumn
Ice-cream: Haagen Daaz

Currents
Mood: Sleepy and excited about tmr. (first month anni)
Taste: SWEET SWEET SWEET STUFF!
Clothes: Skinny jeans and printed tees.
Desktop:VERY BLUE.
Toenail:BLACK.
Time: 11:41pm
Surroundings:Warm and bright.
Annoyances: Kept in suspense of what's gonna happen tmr! dammit.
Thoughts:EXCITED, what the fuck is gonna happen tmr? ARGH!

First
Best Friends: My Ass or Maybe NANA.
Crush:NONE APPLICABLE (don't want boyfriend to feel like crap so, shhhh)
Movie:I have No clue.
Lie: Can't rmb, too many...
Music:WTH, i ain't so lame as to rmb dammit.

Lasts
Cigarette: well, last year... SORRY PEOPLE I AM A DISAPPOINMENT.
Drink(Alcohol):11thNovember2007
Car Ride: idk.
movie: Stomp the Yard(on the net) wo0tz.
Phone Call: an hour or more ago.
CD Played: IDK.

Have you ever:
Dated Your Best Friend: almost.
Broken The Law: UH HUH.
Been Arrested: nahhh. i get away SCOT FREE. wo0tz.
Skinny-Dipped: ...nope
Been On TV: YUPP YUPP!
Kissed Someone You Don't Know:NO WAY.

5 things you are wearing:
sec1 camp tee, green roxy shorts, undergarments.

4 things you've done today:
Friendster-ed, msn-ed, invited pear to my house, went out.

3 things you can hear right now:
Fan whirling, vehicles passing by, song- Hot by Avril Lavinge

1 thing you do when you are bored:
CAMWHORE! xD

5 losers who NEED TO DO THIS:
no one are losers to me, so no idea.
anyone who wants to do it, go ahead.
I don't friggin give a damn.

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

7:35 AM

♥ Monday, November 12, 2007 ♥

Yesterday wasn't in the mood to blog
so today shall cramm all events from
ytd and today into this one post.
I'll try to make it as short as possible,
YESSA!

Yesterday:
Firstly woke up early in the morning
went for mass.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
*unimportant.*
Well went home,
took a nap.
then woke up bathe and change and
headed off to my dad's place.
When i reached it was only me, my dad
and his gf first.
They were preparing to kill the 3 crabs.
I killed two with my bare hands.
I FEEL DISGUSTED with myself.
how can an animal lover kill?
I feel upset and disappointed.
My dad said i should be trying "something new"
it's life and death...
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
then so yeah
the process was utterly gruesome
so i don't bother explaining.
Just know that when a crab is dead,
it drops off one of it's limbs.
YES,
it just falls off just like THAT.
there's no how and why.
IT JUST DROPS OFF DAMMIT.
yupp yupp.
so then they started cooking,
and when my bro and his gf came
and then followed by my sis,
we started eating the first courses,
devil's curry and green curry
followed by some salted sharks meat with chilli.
HMMMM.
sad luh.
POOR SHARKS.
tsk tsk.
I feel so CRUEL!
Nyaaaa~!
i will never be able to forgive myself.
anyway,
we ate and talked.
had laughs and stuff.
then had lychee martini too,
yummy.
AND awfully chocolate ICE CREAM,
it's super uber CHOCOLATEY.
wow luh!
yumm yummmy.
WHEEEE! xD
hahas.
then the cake was awsomely
chocolatey too.
the spongeyness was awfully spongey
and nice.
I LOVED IT! xD
happy early birthday JAN!
yes, that's me
WAHAHAHA!
tralalalala~!
so yeah.
watched soccer.
then yeah
went home around 1 am.
YES YES.
that's abt all.

Today:
Was fun.
I woke up in the morning and picked up my phone,
5 seconds later as i stared into the screen,
JIN called
and asked if he can come down to meet me.
Must have been last night.
WE sort of had an argument,
but see things turned out fine in the end.
All we have to know is that
no matter how many arguments we have
in the end we still love each other
and want each other around.
That's all that matters.
YES.
sorry baby, i was such a fool...
Thanks so much for making effort to meet me.
Glad you had fun today love.
Anyway.
i met JIN at hougang mrt station,
he waited quite long for me
because i almost knocked myself out cold,
i'd left a drawer above my head open
as i was bending to get smth
i'd dropped on the floor,
i lifted my head up only for it to hit the sharp
edge of the open drawer!
OUCHIES~!
i told JIN what happened,
and i said,
"i'm not clumsy!"
the same time he said,
"you're so clumsy luh"
SEE we think alike!
hahas...
We went hougang mall popular first
there was this book
it was really eye catching
JIN found it on the shelf
it was abt singapore and it's BAD english
and everything inside is really
HILARIOUS and quite true.
WHEEEE! xD
funny book.
enjoyed that man.
then we went town to wheelock place,
to go to this shop which sells,
miniature figurine food.
Uber cute.
But didn't manage to find JIN's little mini dimsums
He's so crazy over it luh.
If i can find it i'll buy for him.
LOL!
it'll make him really happy i'm sure.
and i'd do anything to make him happy.
I'll try to go to the ends of the world just to get smth
that will put a smile
on that boy's adorable face!
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
yes i do...
And we went to wait for kevin
at orchard mrt station,
sat at the stairs area,
JIN was somehow fascinated
and indulging
in the way my cheeks turn uber red
when i smile really hard,
or get embarrassed,
or laugh a lot! xD
YESSA!
hahas...
& i was indulging in boyfriend's
super ADORABLE dimples.
SO CUTEEEE.
i love his sexaye dimples.
WOOHOO!
i'm crazy over HIS dimples!
wheeeeee! xD
tralalalala~!
Baby has a wonderful smile,
and plus those awesome dimples of his,
HE LOOK UBER CUTE LUH.
be jealous people!
my boyfriend rocks!
and he DOES NOT look pai kia i don't care!
So anyway,
met kevin.
AND ahhh,
BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.
i'm so lazy to talk abt it luh.
Thanks baby for the candy cane anyway,
went cine.
HAIZ.
josh suddenly popped up from NO WHERE.
so coincidental luh.
hahas.
funny.
No wonder those three fools are best friends.
JIN/kev/Josh.
CUTE little 3 musketeers...
wooohoooo!
lalalalala.
then went home after all that.
before that we went to the youth park and watched
people skateboard.
how fun!
AND WENT HOME.
bye boyfriend.
WILL see you tomorrow again i guess.
YAY! i love boyfriend so much.
AND two more days til our 1st month anni.
14THNOVEMBER2007.
i'll remember you when you're gone,
and i know you'll remember me too.

; ♥ I LOVE YOU BOY, YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME.

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3:50 AM

♥ Saturday, November 10, 2007 ♥

Today was quite fun...
i got to see darling JIN today.
I missed boyfriends so much luh.
He makes my heart
skip a million fast heart beats.
First went to meet them
at J8
Kevin, Josh, Jin
and some other ppl
from kevin's church/youth ministry?
Whichever...
Anyway,
they went to play at st wilfrid's.
Yes.
took a bloody cab there.
What a waste of money and time luh.
Fuck it.
Haha...
But whatever.
Paid & then went in.
They waited for their turn to start playing.
Yeah.
Me and Jin sat at the indoor area first
cause like, outside was raining.
Oh before that i didn't say yet.
There was this match going on ah,
Angmoh dudes against Singapore lang
the cheena singapore lang
go and push push
the angmoh dude.
Angmoh dude crazy luh went to kick
cheena singapore lang
The singapore lang not happy
they both like wanting to pick fight,
then well...
Angmoh dude tryna say sorry and shake his hand.
Singapore lang buay song scold the angmoh dude,
"kan ni na, cheebye, fuck you luh!"
Me laughing at the fact that
the angmoh dude probably didn't really understand
half of wad the cheena singapore lang was
trying to say...
WAHAHA! so funnaye luh.
Imagine if it was a black guy against an angmoh
you'll be hearing things more chim,
like this:
"you bloody motherfucker,
what is your problem fool?
you better watch
yo fucking ass you son of a bitch!"
WHEEEE! xD
i think black people are cool,
ICE COLDDDD.
sh sh shake it, shake it like a polaroid picture.
wo0tz.
PARTAYE LIKE A PORNSTAR.
tralalala.
So anyway,
i didnt eat breakfast yet
so boyfriend and I walked to the nearest
convenient store
to get me some food so i don't faint.
Boyfriend is really caring although
he doesn't really know
how to show it that much
I can it feel it a WHOLE lot.
yes yes.
then we went back to watch.
then went to the field after
talking and crapping
with marcus
the beloved CRAPPER.
yes he is the FUNNY man of the CENTURY.
yupp yupp.
Then we watched
after awhile we went off luh
cause other people's turn to play.
some of the guys had to bathe.
The rest just sat with me.
Haha which is,
Marcus, Josh, Kevin & Jin.
Yes.
Marcus went to take a soaked mop
and kinda mopped over
this bench that Josh was sitting on,
in hope that Josh will be innocent enough
to land his sorry butt on that
disgusting wet stinkaye chair.
& Josh came walking back
seeing me & Jin laughing he said,
"i know ya'll were talking abt me righhht?"
then he plopped his poor ass
unto that bloody chair
ME & JIN started laughing more.
Lol.
i think marcus did too,
maybe kevin was starting to get in on the joke?
HAHA.
whichever.
then we told Josh.
HE was kinda pissed
that he kena JACK.
goodness.
WAHAHAHA! xD
then after awhile
Marcus picked up the mop again
then he smelt it
& was like
WTF it smells like longkang water sia
Then Josh was like,
great now my ass smells like longkang luh.
WAKAKAKA!
so funny.
should have taken a picture of his face
picture perfect.
I SWEAR.
roflmao!
anyway
enough of that
we left to go eat
chicken rice.
YUMMY.
jin got confused by our order
which was fairly simple,
3 plates of roasted chicken rice breast meat
with one egg.
YES.
& we needed Jin to be the orderer
cause he's chinese &
the owners are chinese
so yeah.
GUESS chinese people are really
puh-ree-taye important huh?
YUPP.
then went to buy drinks at 7 eleven
the aunty should kena sued.
WANNA KNOW WHY?
are you that interested?
then ask me on msn fools.
cause too much vulgarity will come out
onto this post if i start talking
abt that old hag biatch.
SORRY.
see what I mean?
yessa!
anyway.
we almost missed the bus,
thanks so much
mr BUS driver
for waiting for our DARLING KEVIN
who was still paying for his drink.
LALALALA...
yes yes.
they went to play lan,
counter strike
for idk how long.
But it was getting boring after awhile
But i was entertained luh.
yupp.
We left.
Only leaving,
kev, josh, jin and jan(me)
WAHAHA!
we went to this playground thingy first.
Had to cross the fence wadeva
thang,
worse of all i was wearing a skirt.
But nevermind
i'm not that conscious anyway.
Look then look at my underwear loh.
I have nth to show anyway!
Hahaha...
Then we went to AMK library
read some,
ehem
INTERESTING and KNOWLEDGABLE
books...
LOL.
then went to kevin's house area thr.
Bought like buns to eat...
Yummy yummy..
then like waited for kevin to come back
down?
AS WE WAITED,
and waited,
i felt like buying a drink so i did.
YAHOOO!
waited fr kevin.
& then he came
Jin fetched me home
& kev and josh waited for a bus.
Cause kevin was going to Josh's house
idk wad gay things they gonna do
together luh, but yeahh.
JIN and I sat in the bus tgt,
on almost reaching our destination
i kept hearing this annoying hissing sound
i swear i knew it was some insect
and i found it!
LOOKING AT ME
with it's disgusting buggy eyes.
Behind some white color board like thingy.
It was flimsy luh so the cockcroach
was like able to crawl.
DUE TO MY SHOCK AND HORROR.
i squished the flimsy thang,
in hope that it would die
and be killed under my foot!
I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN the hissing noises
stopped.
But JIN and I stood up til the stop whr
we're supposed to alight.
I HATE COCKCROACHES or any
other bloody fucking INSECT!
so gross luh.
bloody mothereffers.
DIE! DIE! DIE!
oops sorry.
I just really dislike them alot luh.
YESSA!
anyway,
at my house JIN was like wanting to stay at the
staircase there.
TSK.
i waited for him to leave.
we stayed with each other there til 10.10pm like that?
then he walked me to my door.
My mum saw him.
SHE SAID ALOT OF HURTFUL STUFF.
she's so mean luh.
I know my boyfriend may look pai kia
but it doesn't mean his attitude and personality
is LIKE one.
He's the best ever luh.
THE NICEST,
THE SWEETEST,
THE CUTEST,
THE COOLEST,
THE AWESOMEST,
THE MOST LOVING.
he's everything good okayyy.
my mum's last words were,
"i don't bother to even try getting to know him
til he learns to put that hair down?"
just cause he spike his hair?
WTH?
she's being a big fat BIATCH again...
I can't stand it luh.
SO UPSETTING okayyy?!
mean asshole.
MY BOYFRIEND ROCKS.
no one is allowed to judge him,
if you dare,
I WILL PERSONALLY GO FIND YOU
& smash yr bloody face!
I'M SERIOUS PEOPLE.
keep yr insults to yrself...
Boyfriend is mine
& I'm his.
He told me he thinks of me everytime,
I felt uber happy.
He makes me smile with the most
simplest words and the littlest things
that he does for me.
I love him uber uber much.
NO ONE,
i repeat.
NO ONE CAN REPLACE MY DARLING BOYFRIEND.
he is too precious to me.
YES HE IS.

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7:05 AM

♥ Thursday, November 8, 2007 ♥

I think bee hives are funny.
I just had a random thought of them
so don't mind me.
I am always sickeningly random.
I can't stand myself either.
Righttt.
Anyway,
today is a BORING
effed up suckish day
i woke up in the morning
with a splitting headache,
and still am clueless as to the fact
whether i'm having fever I not.
Which most likely I am having.
How nice.
FEVER= can't see boyfriend.
But anyway boyfriend says he might be working
so nevermind.
Boyfriend's a busy bee.
that lives in a bee hive?
Hahaha.
sorry enough with bee hives i suppose.
Well, but i really miss him.
Haven't seen the likes
of my baby for so many days.
I feel like my insides are dying slowly.
I cry about it,
but still what's the use of crying?
It's not gonna make baby
come flying from nowhere
into my arms,
it's been long since i've hugged him...
Sometimes I just wished he was here
for just a little while
so I could lean on his shoulder.
Baby may be bony,
but to me he's the most comfortable person to lie on.
I love him so much,
can you tell?
Well, i should stop whining about how much
i'm missing him.
Yes yes.
As baby always says,
"get a hold of yourself"
So yes i will try to pull myself together.
Just this time.
Lalalala.
Today's day really is killing me.
My head is still hurting like mad.
And 5 bucks is going down the drain
cause i can't go to collect
the shirt from Alice.
DAMN.
i also don't have enough money so wth.
Can't wait til i'm fourteen,
i wanna start working luh...
Dammit.
i shall end here.
BEFORE I DROP DEAD.

i love and miss you boy

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11:51 PM

♥ ♥

Camwhored today. pics below...
see see see.
NO INSULTS ALLOWED.
or i will hunt you down &
skin your backside til it's bloodshot red.
i am just kidding don't worry
FOOLS! xD

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JAN&JIN ; SEXAYELOVE

8:37 AM

♥ ♥

Hello world.
Today went bugis.
with my "darlings"
Kevin and Josh.
Yes yes.
Anyway, we walked around
for idk what reason.
Oh yea, i was supposed
to pay Alice the money.
Then on second
thoughts i didn't
NOT ENOUGH MONEY.
yes yes.
WHATEVER.
so we walked around Bugis Street.
uber crowded luh.
We walk cross the road so freaking PACKED.
omg.
Then finally we got to the middle of the SHYTZ.
there was this guy
giving out flyers.
I looked at them and asked him,
"why when I come here the flyers always seem
to be the same?"
Then he was like
the manager no other ideas what.
Haha.
it was hilarious that he even answered me
Cause first of all
I wasn't even asking for his opinion
I was actually talking to myself.
But whatever.
I couldn't care less.
Lalalala.
Walked around Bugis Street.
tralalala.
Kevin didn't know his way around.
How fun.
And the drink stall selling was asking fruits to come.
In chinese luh.
dunno wad
"mu gua, xi gua, papaya, banana lai lai lai"
OMFG luh.
tsk tsk
i was rather annoyed at her.
It's like so crowded already then we have
to wait for Josh's banana shytz.
Then she keep calling fruits to come.
I really felt like smacking her
with my shoe.
That bloody idiot,
the next time I go there she better shut
her motor mouth.
Running nonstop, i hope the batteries die
soon.
But dammit,
she can recharge or buy new ones.
TSK TSK.
i hope the machine breakdown luh.
WAKAKA! xD
just kidding,
sorry luh aunty
don't come after me with your fruits okay?
please and thank you.
*smiles big, shows teeth*
we walked again.
Then went to MOS burger.
Josh bought us milkshakes,
and then again
I start singing the damn song.
LOL.
thank you Josh for the yummy milkshakes!
the kiddo is the best luh.
We crapped alot.
GOODNESS.
the good times oh the good times.
Woohoo!
yes yes...
JIN wasn't with us SADLY.
nyaaaa~[!]
i miss boyfriend so MUCH okayyy.
dammit.
Anyway,
we went to eat dinner then talked again.
yes yes.
then the guys left.
I went to meet sis & her friend Ling Yi.
yupp...
went inside played some pool.
FOR FREE.
and then yeah...
LALALALALA.
went home
cause mummy was nagging us to get home
DAMN HER!
yes yes...
SO NOW I'M HERE BLOGGING.
wad do you want with my LIFE????
oh right...
absolutely nothing.
hahas.

{♥} i love you boyfriend

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7:56 AM