Oh, what a shock.

2007-12-20T19:16:00.000-08:00

MUMMY'S GETTING ME A PSP SLIM!<33
i love her larh...
LOL! xD
i am uber psyched.
Yesterday met huiting babe!
went to town first...
then headed to simei for work.
The ice cream thing again.
Sales for us was quite good.
Not bad already larh.
Other people's worse you know.
WE each earned $21.
enough to eat luh.
Haha...
WHEEEE! xD
can't wait til I get my psp slim..
I took some recent pics,
so i uploaded them...
Have fun viewing people...

2007-12-17T18:48:00.001-08:00

I have 2 words to describe my BLOG,
COMPLETELY & DEAD.
it's fucking hell dead and down in the dirt cause I really
have no time to update & blog
and post pictures & shytz.
And I haven't been in a BLOGGING mood.
I've been in a, i-can't-wait-til-christmas MOOD.
tsk tsk...
I miss boyfriend.
haven't seen him in 2 days.
I know it's not that long,
but I really really enjoy having him around...
SO anw,
later on i'll be heading to Bugis to do my manicure...
So people come say HI to meeee.
Lol! xD
whateverrrr.
I am OFF.

-i'm leaving on a jet plane-
-little miss smexy vampire zombie-

2007-12-11T18:31:00.000-08:00

Today I'm gonna go meet my dad,
to only collect money from him luh...
YAY!
here comes my $230.
Wheeeeee! xD
i waited so damn long luh.
GOSH.
anw,
i found my xmas dress.
although it isn't RED.
It's still damn nice larhhh...
only reserved it til today,
so had to call dad & squeeze the money out from him,
so i'll be meeting him today at around 12.30pm
at bugis library there,
then will make my way to citylink to collect & pay for the dress.
I'LL BE ALL ALONE LARHHH,
so bloody sian okayyyy.
GOODNESS.
but around 2.30pm then i'll
meet my mummy dearest! xD
yay.
I guess I won't be alone for too long,
i can walk around on my own for awhile I guess.
It won't kill me right.
TSK.
so til then,
i'm bored as hell.
FUACKIT.
won't be able to see boyfriend til friday,
which is our 2 month anni so,
WHEEEE! =3
I'm uber psyched...
Hah!
yupp...
I love him alot larhhh.
LOL
so anw,
i'll end here.
JAN is signing OFF.

- ♥ little miss smexy vampire zombie ♥ -

2007-12-08T05:54:00.000-08:00

Today was pretty much OKAY.
First I woke up early in the morning around 9am
supposed to meet Jin darling,
was waiting for his call.
So i used the com til 9.40am then went to take
a shower and Jin gave a miss call when I just got out.
Had to call him back to tell him to call again.
Yupp.
Blow dried my hair and changed...
Then made my way to his house.
Reached, and waited for Josh
cause he said he would come.
Then after awhile he said he's eating lunch with his family
first and he'll come after that.
So we waited,
Jin fell asleep again,
so I woke him up desperately.
It was pretty fun...
Tralalala~!
then met kevin
we went vivo..,
to camwhore...
Haiz...
Just see the stupid senseless pics & enjoy luh...

Well that's all folks, hope ya'll had your fun...
WHEEEE! xD
JAN'S SIGNING OFF YO...
PEACE OUT THIS SHYTZ WOOTZ...

-little miss smexy vampire zombie-

2007-12-06T18:31:00.000-08:00

I am uber bored.
It's 10.33am in the morning...
I'm dying.
Just using the com waiting for boyfriend to call.
We're suppose to meet today.
Time, unplanned.
Location, unplanned.
Sometimes I feel like he doesn't even give a damn.
He wants to see me,
but doesn't bother to plan?
WTF larhs.
I can't stand it sometimes,
but what can I do besides keeping my mouth shut.
Tsk.
But still, I love him truckloads.
he better call soon though...
The wait is killing me!
tralalalala~!
Oooh, just received an sms,
JOSH says he's bored...
Right...
Okays...
LOL! xD
kiddo arh...
tsk tsk tsk.
JIN,
JAN'S waiting like a fool for you...
CALL CALL CALL MEH NOW!
yeahhh,
like as if he can hear me.
DANG!
I'm seriously like dying.
Gosh, someone murderrr me...
with a shiny kitchen knife.
Some ketchup would be fine to create a nicer effect.
Yeahhh.
STEAL MY BREATHE AND DON'T GIVE IT BACK.
hahs..
i'm so bored
that i'm blabbering nonsense AGAIN.
i am always so weird...
Boyfriend knows that very well,
i'm a random person.
Sorry.
HAH!
anyway,
i should stop before I say more shytz.
Jan's signing off yo.

-little miss smexy vampire zombie-

2007-12-05T17:03:00.000-08:00

Hello fools.
Today I'll probably head out with darling boyfriend....
To grab some free COFFEE at starbucks.
People if You don't go,
you sure are missing out on some fabulous tasting
FREE COFFEE...
i want my caramel frappe baby!
Been long since I've had one of those.
Anyway today starbucks are having
an christmas open house thing.
Any starbucks island wide.
Yupp.
Any drink you want is on the house.
Thursday, today, 6th December 2007
1700-1900
GO GRAB YOUR FREE COFFEE NOW!
hahas...
I'll be at the one in Compass Point...
I'm afraid that there would be long queues...
FUACKIT.
madnesssss larh.
But it's all in the name of FREE COFFEE.
i just can't get enough of the fact that
the coffee is FREE.
ooooh laaa laaaa my dream has finally come true.
A less fortunate like me really
needs and knows how to appreciate
FREE stuff, be it coffee or whatever...
Oh what am I saying..
All singaporeans are like that!
GOSH..
anyway for more info vist ASHH's Blog
(view links)
Yupp...
alrighty then people,
JAN is signing off this shytz yo.

- little miss smexy vampire zombie♥mr awesome soul slayer -

2007-12-05T01:07:00.000-08:00

Hello people.
Today was an awfully terribly boring day.
Boyfriend's off with his friends...
Birthday partaye shytz or something...
Oh whatever...
It doesn't bother me that much...
But I kinda miss him a little.
Anyway,
I woke up today.
Was supposed to meet ben
but I cancelled those plans cause
I didn't feel like going out.
It rained the whole darn bloody blithering day anyway.
So lucky me,
I made a wise decision in staying safe and warm
at home.
Tugged in snug like a bug in my blanket...
Oooh.
After my shiok naps,
I decided to put up the christmas tree
since brother is having asthma
he was admitted to A&E the night before.
Must have been all the fire fighting...
Poor brother.
So I decided to lift some weight off his shoulders
by taking over his job of putting
up the christmas tree...
WHEEEE! xD
and I got the chance to decorate it..
So now the tree looks spectacularly AWESOME.
I was gonna surprise my mum with it
but godma blabbed abt it to her...
But she still hasn't have a clue how it looks like,
so yeah...
I wanna see the happy expression on her face,
cause it'll definitely make my day.
I hope I get to see boyfriend soon...
Maybe tomorrow?
But it's his grandma's birthday so I really don't know.
Maybe i'll get to tag along?
Hmmmm...
still hoping.
Yupp...
So other than all that,
I may be working the ice cream job thing again...
It's only cause I want money...
So I can go shopping.
I want at least 300 plus plus to go shop with luh...
It'll make me happy...
I hope people remember me & get me christmas presents.
I WANT PRESENTS! or money...
Either one...
Hahas.
Can't wait for my christmas money to roll in...
Then I can shop til I literally DROP dead...
How fun & exciting.
But I have to shop with so many people...
DARN!
must find the peeps with the best taste.
One of which on my list is definitely my sister and
my brother's girlfriend...
Heh!
So anyway,
I'm off to go nap again...
So long people...
Today's weather is a fine time to SLEEP in like
a furry little pussy cat.
So,
*meow* people.
Peace out this shytz yaw.

- little miss smexy vampire zombie ♥ mr awesome soul slayer -

2007-12-03T20:21:00.000-08:00

Hi all who reads this awesomely stinkaye blog.
Wo0tz.
Yesterday was awesome.
First woke up early in the morning at 8.30am plus plus
gave boyfriend a good morning sms.
Then decided to head back to nap awhile more.
Around 9 plus plus I was awoken by
a certain noisy drilling coming from right above me,
well the ceiling that is.
I ran out of my room screaming,
"SOMEBODY GO THERE AND TELL THEM TO PLEASE
STOP THE FUCKING DRILLING! I'M HAVING A FUCKING
HEADACHE THANKS TO THEM! ARGHHHH!!!"
& stomps back into my room.
My mum yelled at me...
Tsk, annoying person...
Hahaha...
So yes,
i tried to block out all the freaking noise
by putting on my headphones and
blasting insanely loud music into my ears...
And man the feeling was GREAT.
Then around 10 or 11 plus plus?
boyfriend msged me that he was awake.
So i called him.
Apparently he was making his way to go visit his mummy
at SGH.
I called him and he told me he was already at Amk mrt station.
So i told him abt the drilling and that
I wanted to tag along with him.
So I quickly showered & got dressed
and hopped along to hougang mrt station.
I took the train down to outram and met him there.
He was awesomely handsome that day...
Amazing.
Oh and I loved his Red hoodie...
It's uber comfy...
Yes i snucked in it later on...
Hahas.
So we took a shuttle bus to the hospital..
And walked to the wards...
Had to wait for his mum to come back..
Cause apparently she went upstairs to look at the baby...
Yupp.
So she came down and we sat with her watching tv.
And then darling boyfriend and I got hungry.
So we went to eat at the food court.
It was really crowded
and awfully small
but thank god we found seats so that wasn't so bad.
We ate and hurried back up cause
the nurses said they would take the baby to the ward at around 1pm.
So yeah...
We waited patiently...
AND TAAAADAAAA!
the baby arrived after awhile!
so awesome...
cute little baby girl.
Yes she is!
Haha...
JIN looked uber uber happy..
He's so cute luh.
Can tell he really loves her alot...
Well,
they settled the baby's feeding and all
which was a joy to watch
cause the baby was really cute when she's drinking the milk.
Lol...
She makes really cute noises too.
ADORABLE!
but sadly they haven't named the little baby yet...
So yeahhh...
TSK.
but anyway.
Did i mention JIN'S hoodie
can be like a dress for me...
wooohoooo!
people looked at me like i was some kinda freak,
oh wait
I am...
LMAO! xD
anyway
we went to then buy some snacks from polar puffs and bought coffee
back up for his mum...
AND...
yeahhhh...
i needed to use the toilet badly
and no i didn't wanna use the patient toilets so
we went to find the normal ones.
so yeahhhh.
I PEEEEED happily.
then we went to sit at some "waiting area"?
yupp.
we could fit into one chair together,
as snug as a bug...
Mmmm...
we sort of almost napped tgt there.
Snuggling with him is uber fun...
And like rubbing noses together..
Gosh i'll never forget him,
i swear...
We sure have loads of happy times together!
hahas...
and oh,
our 2nd month anni is coming soon...
SO FAST.
i'm uber excited...
Mannnn,
I LOVE EUGENE NG.
haha...
yes i sure do...
Anyway
when we came back,
his grandma was there carrying the baby...
So yeah.
Hi grandma...
Then we went to eat dinner...
So i said my goodbyes,
yes to the baby...
LOL.
ate dinner then he walked me to the mrt station.
I realised there was a 147 there at the bus stop
so we waited for it.
When it came and we had to part,
I admit I was sure feeling kinda empty..
I'm starting to like having him around
and i'm getting a little too attached to that feeling...
But yea,
i'll be seeing my darling boyfriend on wednesday hopefully.
Yupp yupp.
How exciting right.
Anyway when I was back home
I asked BEN to call me.
So we talked alot.
And i talked to ben abt JIN.
about how boyfriend manages to give everyone equal attention.
He's definitely my superboyfriend now...
I love him...
I don't know how he does the things he does...
But i like it just the way it is.
he's totally amazing.
Everyday I feel like I'm the luckiest girl in this universe,
cause I know I have him...
Sometimes this all really feels like nothing more but a dream,
but when he kisses me,
I know everything we have is real.

I feel like a princess and you my hero...

- ♥ little miss smexy vampire zombie ♥ -

2007-12-02T02:32:00.000-08:00

hey mr bloggy...
I've been quite bored of blogging lately.
I'm starting to find it a waste of time.
So from today on,
I will only blog when i'm dead bored.
Yupp.
Anyway
today was quite boring.
Nothing much interesting to talk about.
See i woke up at 9.50am,
supposed to go for morning mass.
But I was too lazy to get my arse up
so I said i'd go for evening mass.
Well then i watched tv for awhile
and well, went back to sleep...
I slept all the way until 1.40pm?
Then went to bathe cause
my mum said we're meeting my brother
to go ikea and get stuff for the house.
So we left the house
around 2.45pm and headed to pick my bro
then off to ikea.
We walked around like fools.
First mum said she wanted to get a new sofa,
followed by footrest and then a carpet,
then curtains, mirrors, wine glasses, christmas decorations.
And some other stuff.
Anyway they sell prettaye awesome hotdogs...
So after that we sort of went home?
Well dropped my bro off at pasir ris mrt
then after that we headed home.
Very boring indeed.
I received a msg from boyfriend then saying
that his mum was like in labour, gonna give birth.
& I was like oh, yay! Haha...
Well darling Jin is doing a great great job at
being there for his mummy.
Yes,
one word to describe my boyfriend,
AWESOME.
he's like my superboyfriend luh.
He makes everything alright.
I love him so much.
I'm uber lucky to have him by my side...
the highlight of today was
that the whole of last night til apparently early morning,
my brother, mr firefighter
was fighting a huge fire at some timber warehouses
somewhere in SG that is unheard of
with his fellow fire fighters.
My brother is a brave dude.
Yes he is.
& I am proud of him luh.
He's like the bestest firefighter in the WORLD.
yes,
My brother, the firefighter.
I love him..
Wow!
I have two amazing guys in my life to be very proud of.
My brother and My boyfriend.
THE only two guys in my life
that ever makes me proud...
*smiles widely*

Well that's that then...
Bye fellowmates.

- ♥ little miss smexy vampire zombie ♥ -

2007-11-30T05:55:00.000-08:00

Fool,
i am a mere fool
nothing more and nothing less.
There is nothing more to me
than this foolishness within.
My being on this world,
living and breathing,
makes no difference to this face of the earth.
The only way I find meaning in life
is through YOU,
my love, my life, my everything.
You taught me how to fly even with
broken and worn out wings.
You made me see my importance in this world.
And also you made me feel special,
needed and wanted all at the same time.
As the tears rolled down your cheeks,
I finally understood
how much I meant to you.
I love you,
and i will never leave you,
at least just not right now.
I promise that I will only leave
when you ask of me to.
Otherwise I see no point and reason
for me to leave your side.
Let me accompany you
and chase away your lonesome
for as long as I can.
Let's cherish this time, love.
Just you and me.
We can make more of this than we could
ever imagine it to be.
I love you.

- ♥ little miss smexy vampire zombie ♥ -

2007-11-26T19:29:00.000-08:00

Helloooo uber ultra sexaye imbeciles like myself,
good morning.
I'm in a it's-time-to-study kinda mood.
Never in my entire life
have I been so darn excited to flip
random pages in NEW TEXTBOOKS
and actually read through and UNDERSTAND everything.
If baby doesn't mind,
tmr when we go out i would like to bring my Literature book
along to go to a nice quiet peaceful library to
just relax and STUDY.
hopefully he knows how to entertain himself.
Cause i honestly don't think he'll find
"How to Kill a Mocking Bird" interesting at all.
But yes,
people i am studying.
BUSY BEE!
and soon will start on MATH TUITION,
which i am also ultra uber psyched about.
No don't worry I haven't become a bookworm!
Well, at least not yet right.
Just hope my eyesight stays as perfect as it is.
I prefer it this way.
Clear Vision makes me a Happy Girl.
And my recent attitude has
been much much better.
Well, i think.
Better then last time,
at least there's improvement
and who says
there's no more room for some MORE improvement
cause i assure you
there still is plenty room left.
HAHAS!
yessa...
I have to plan outings with the ppl i said i would meet up
with this hols but haven't got a chance
to meet up with them yet cause
i'm too darn busy with shtuffs.
-Aileen
-Eileen
-Huiting
-YanLing
-Lisa
-Winnie
-Ben?

Idk.
But well, i'll just wait & see.
This week's schedule can allow me to see one group off people,
which is most likely
aileen, eileen and huiting.
GO WATCH movie i hope.
Must ask aileen and eileen if they'll be FREE.
heh! xD
SUNDAY is now OFFICIALLY temporarily unavailable.
LOL!
so yeahhhh.
OUTINGS~!
have to plan all before the holidays are over.
& Jin's idea of going cycling at night
IT'S AWESOME,
but dangerous too.
cause i'm a girl after all and my mum might not allow it.
Haiz...
SADDDD.
but i'll try persuading her,
cause i'm all thumbs up for the idea.
Although i'll truly feel like
a GUY,
it's okay...
i ain't all that of a girly girl anyway.
TSK.
what kinda girl did you take me for?
lmao...
So anyway,
i'm sort of onto audition again.
wakakaka~!
i know i said i wouldn't play again...
But well,
i can't help myself.
GAMES ARE ADDICTIVE.
i swear.
my fingers start randomly
"pressing" buttons in air.
ALL OF A SUDDEN sometimes.
i think i'm a weird person
other times i just think that i'm different that's all.
But right now i feel like i'm
SPECIAL!
yeahhh, that could be it.
alright that's all for now folks.
ABT the rest of my day?
i told you,
STUDY STUDY STUDY.
maybe you should too,
one day you might actually grow some brains.
LOL!

peace out this shytz yaw
-♥ little miss smexy vampire zombie ♥-

2007-11-25T04:46:00.000-08:00

I'M GONNA MISS YOU MY SEXAYE BOYFRIEND! xD

alright,
people i am taking a small teeny weeny minor break
from my darling boyfriend.
WHY?
because i need to change my nasty attitude.
haha.
Yes,
well i think all the talk has really knocked
some sense into my head
i feel awesomely better now.
I'm definitely gonna be good.
I've been a spoilt little brat for far too long.
It's time for me to stop
putting the blame on everyone
& venting my anger on other people.
I should take it out on myself.
I was really being a bitch.
SORRY for the immature-ness
& for all the insults and criticizing
and degrading.
I'm truly sorry luh guys.
But i'll be better!
I promise.
TRUST ME.
heh! xD
i'm not a bitch luh,
so why was i acting like one?
I really don't know what got into me.
So sorry luh...
Okay enough.

I'm gonna give myself til wednesday to think through my wrongdoings
and search for the inner chi hidden deep within my soul.
Let's start by doing some breathing exercises shall we?
Breathe in... *inhales air* Breathe out... *exhales air*

WHEEEE! xD
i'm gonna be better.
YAY!
not gonna be a mean bitch anymore.
Don't worry luh.
*smiles*
JAN'S BACK HOORAH!
hip hip...
HOORAYYYY!
well you don't seem too excited...
YOU BETTER BE!
nyahahahaha~!

JAN signing off.
PEACE OUT THIS SHYTZ YAW.

♥ i love you boy

2007-11-24T18:45:00.000-08:00

Happy Happy 14th Birthday Pearlyn daddy! xD
I love you so.

I have nth much to say.
I just woke up this morning feeling pretty sore at the throat.
I almost wanted to Jab a freaking chopstick right
in the middle of my throat.
And i almost slashed again! How foolish of me.
Depressed, and what do i turn to?
SLASHING MY FUACKING WRIST AND FOREARM?!
that's not the way,
i have to control my fuacking self.
What the hell is wrong with me.
I know i'm afraid that i'll lose him and all,
but why am i so depressed?
To the point of me wanting to hurt myself again.
I'm tired of abusing myself time and time again...
I'm really stupid aren't I.
But anyway,
I DID NOT SLASH MYSELF.
there isn't any fresh wounds to see anyway,
only the old scars.
UH HUH, there's my proof.
So don't worry abt me BLOGGY.
i'm fine.

I AM FINE, JUST SICK IN THE MIND.

tralalalala~!
boyfriend doesn't want me anymore i think.
But i don't blame him.
I've truly been a direct pain in the butthole.
i apologised.
But still a thousand apologies could never make
up for all my mistakes.
But anyway,
all i can say is i'm truly sorry.
I can't change who i am,
you can't change me,
you can't change who you are,
I can't change you.
But all i know is that i really honesty do Love you dear.
It's all you need to know.

♥ i love you boy

2007-11-24T03:42:00.000-08:00

I'm fuacking sick.
**** it all luh.
I'm just feeling so unloved,
so sickened,
so unreasonable,
so stupid.

i fweel UNLOVED= cause of boyfriend
i fweel SICKENED= cause of boyfriend
i am UNREASONABLE= cause of boyfriend
i think i'm STUPID= cause of boyfriend

I'm sorry,
i ain't blaming anyone here.
IT'S just me and my sorry, sick state i'm in.
Just look at me.
I'M A BIG MESS.
fuack everything.
trust boyfriend to not spare a thought for me
even when i'm so sick.
FUACK LUH.
and he says i expect alot from him huh.
BOYFRIEND, i fuacking don't expect anything
from YOU.
all i'm asking is that you spare a thought for me,
your girlfriend.
In case you forgot,
i am your girlfriend
and it's apparently your priority to make me happy?
but whatever,
i can't care less.
SORRY abt the things i said.
It was on impulse k.
I'm angry with you but you
know it's only for awhile
and you should know when i'm angry i
tend to say alot of things that
i don't actually mean.
So please try to understand me love.
haiz...
I have no idea what i'm saying.
Just hope you enjoyed yourself going cycling as your darling
girlfriend was suffering and sick in bed at home.
Sometimes, i feel like
i should just walk right out of your life
so i don't have to hurt you anymore.
And each day i feel more afraid to be with you
cause i know the longer i'm with you
the more i'm gonna hurt you
So sometimes i feel like I should just leave.
But you know I won't leave til you tell me to.
You and I both know the truth,
that I could never bear to leave you.
So if I ever do,
please rmb,
It's not cause i'm being selfish or anything,
it's cause i just don't wish to hurt you further.
I'm so afraid of being the one to always hurt you.
I'll hate myself if I ever hurt you badly.
I'd really hate myself to death.
Because I love you too much to even wanna hurt you.

No matter how much I say it can't really express all
My feelings.
I don't know anymore.
I'm just afraid of hurting you or losing you.
I need you.

♥ i love you boyfriend

2007-11-21T09:04:00.000-08:00

today went down
all the way to boonlay to meet JIN dear again.
I have this addiction to SHIHLIN'S chicken.
JIN says maybe they put cocaine in it,
he said he wouldn't be surprised
if tomorrow he goes down to get some.
LOL! xD
baby and me are addicted.
HOOKED ON CHICKEN IN A WAY YOU NEVER COULD.
tralalala~!
today wasn't much interesting.
IT rained over at jurong again.
SADLY.
it always seems to be raining when i'm there.
THANK god i had,
SUPERHOODIE !
wheeeee! xD
the amazing superhoodie to the rescue.
WHEN I NEEDED SHELTER FROM THE RAIN,
HOODIE YOU WERE THE ONE THERE FOR ME.
i don't need no stinkaye UMBRELLA,
i got my HOODIE oodie oodie oh oh oh
LOL! xD
yes that's what i'm talking bout yo.
HEHE.
i despise little creatures that appear to look like ants
but apparently are not.
I'M RANDOM
sorry, it's just me.
NEWS JUST IN,
the ice cream job thingy is like so packed,
people keep wanting to work
so like no space for me and Huiting to work.
I FEEL LIKE CRYING.
hope tmr can work.
I NEED MONEY.
really badly...
TSK.
i miss the days when i had money.
NOW I'M REALLY REALLY BROKE AS HELL.
gosh,
i need boyfriend to provide for meh alright.
HOPEFULLY he even has enough for
himself.
Which i doubt he does.
SO forget about that oh-so-wonderful plan.
DAMMIT LUH.
wheeee! xD
i'm HIGH.
i played audi
and sickeningly i failed my licence twice.
YOU KNOW WHY?
cause the friggin laptop is so fucking LAGGY.
like shytz i tell you.
CAN'T STAND IT LUH.
bloody fuck shyt.
*cries tears of sorrow*
I am miserable,
cause i'm down with FEVER,
thanks to my bloody throat infection.
THANKS UH.
~no prob~
FUCK no one talking to you la.
~wadeva~
SHUT UP already.
~suit yourself~
are you trying to annoy me?
~how can i when you're annoying yourself~
WTF you ain't making sense!
~yeah, i'm making lots of DOLLARS~
oh great! WHAT A JOKE. i'm actually laughing.

sorry.
WOOPS
i needed to self entertain myself.
BUT ANYWAY,
getting to the point.
I AM SICK.
fever-ish and very sick.
THROAT hurts like hell.
NO MONEY TO SEE A DOCTOR,
and too scared to tell my mum i'm sick
or she'll kill me,
and i won't be able to go out.
NYAAAA~!
i'm dying.
AND boyfriend's not here to save me.
I FEEL LIKE CRYING LUH...
BAHHHH!
this is the worse ever luh.
IT SHUCKS EGGS.

i am sick.

SICK AS HELL.

i'm fucking sick.

DAMN THE SICKNESS.

i'm super duper sick.

SUPERMAN THAT HOE.

i'm still sick.

SUPERMAN'S A BITCH.

cause i'm still damn fucking bloody ass SICK.

up your piehole superman.
I DON'T NEED YO shytz no more.

I'M OUT YA'LL
peace~

♥ i love you boyfriend

2007-11-20T18:57:00.000-08:00

Fuck It,
i haven't been updating in awhile
cause i'm getting bored.
HAIZ.
i have no idea what to say anymore.
My blog posts aren't getting anymore crappier.
I loved the crap
i used to be able to produce.
NOW i just can't people.
I CAN'T.
and i'm fucking hell sorry okay?

Well anyway,
yesterday was pretty fun.
I went all the way to boonlay
from hougang just to see JIN dear.
We didn't do much but just hanging around each other
is like loads of fun.
I LOVE OUR CRAPPING moments,
and how we fool around.
TSK TSK.
and the tickles,
and his ever so retarded face makes me smile.
HAHAS!
wo0tz.
so the day went by just me and him
around his house area.
TRALALALA~!
nothing much to say here.
THEN we went to eat pizza hut! xD
i was longing for it.
BUT NOW I AM BROKE.
T.T
fuckit all.
MY heart pain luh.
BUT STILL I WAS CONTENTED.
with FOOOOOOOD.
yippeeee!
>.<
Then had to go home after,
I footed the bill.
HAHA.
(see i'm so kind, treat my bf)
anyway,
went home.
RAINED AT HOUGANG when i got out
of the station
i started getting depressed,
just staring and the water droplets
trickling down the window panes.
FUCKIT.
thankgod JIN called me to ease the boredom.
TRALALALA~!
wheeeee...
then went home,
bathed
and then played audi with JIN dear.
that little noober.
HAHA.
JAN PWNS JIN'S BUTTHOLE FOR 100000000~ GOLD.
woohoooo!
yupp yupp.
THEN i went off to go to sleep.
Haiz.
I might be seeing him again today.
ALL the way at boonlay there again.
CAUSE apparently baby is grounded for a whole week.
HOW NICE.
whatever, it
was partly my fault anyway.
I BLAME ME.
Nyaaaa~!

i'm off now probably gonna play audi,
improve my chaining skills yo.
Wo0tz! xD

i
am
out

PEACE HOMIES!
wakakaka!
;LMAO
rofl...

Happy Birthday to ME.

2007-11-17T22:34:00.001-08:00

Happy Birthday To Me,
Happy Birthday To JAN,
Happy Birthday dear JANA...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
(yes the "people" mentioned above is none other then yours truly, MUA!)

Gratias to all zee peeps who zwished zmee a zhappy birthzay.
Hi, i'm Pereira Andrea Jana
and i'm from france (i wish).
Well, it's my birthday so if I say i'm from france,
then damn it I AM FROM FRANCE.
so yeah.
ANYWAY,
thanks to ppl who remembered my birthday and
actually took the bloody effort
to wish me a very happy birthday.
I LOVE ALL YOU PEOPLE.
you're the ones that put a smile on my face,
especially darling Jin my sexy monkaye of a boyfriend.
Just kidding baby,
no demoralizing for today right.

I am finally fourteen so here are 14 things i've learnt so far in life,

1.Never trust your pet, especially if it's a rabbit.

2.Never watch porn without using earphones, cause someone might
walk in on all the action and sound effects.

3.Never talk back to your mother, cause you'll only get twice the nagging
back in your ears, believe me the sound is terrible.

4.Don't trust a guy unless he signs a legal contract to watch your ass
constantly and never lie to you EVER.

5.Don't make empty promises to people if you don't want them
to make empty promises to you.

6.Smile like you mean it and don't fake one just for
the rest of the world to see.

7.Buy things that are neccessary, most of the time.

8.Manage your budget well and keep your money in a safer place called,
the BANK rather then to keep it under you bloody pillow.

9.Keep secrets close to yourself and don't share it with
stupid people who blab it all out.

10.Don't call people a BITCH in public unless you want them
staring at you with their "big" ugly eyes.

11.Wear shirts with words people can barely understand,
that is if you want the attention.

12.Boyfriends are good accesories, if you know
how to use them the right way that is.

13.There is such a thing as love at first sight, the experience
is a magic undescribable beyond comprehend.

14.Love is blind. And no one is perfect, til you fall
in love with them.

SO all in all, Happy Birthday to Me,
Pereira Andrea Jana.

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~

You've been cordially invited to crash the party over at pasir ris park,
area 3 pit 43.

Invitation sent out by,
None other then the one and only motherducking princess,
Me,
yes Pereira Andrea Jana.

The birthday girl is in the hiss house.
AND now
she's abt to be out yo.
PEACE OUT HOMIES.
i know ya feelin' meh.

LAUGH OUT LOUD.
i can still be such a funny kiddo on my birthday.
GOSH,
i'm the number one contender.
NO one,
i repeat.
NO DUCKING ONE
can replace me!

wakakakaka~!
HATERS PLEASE LEAVE IMMEDIATELY.

(i'm not stuck up it's just a big joke)

if you wanna take my words seriously then it's your problem,

so if anything offends you,

it's your problem.

And if you feel insulted after reading this,

it's just your fucking problem.

Tralalalala~!

Sayonara people.
I'm off to JAPAN.
yeahhh right.

I ain't got no money,

I ain't got no car to take myself on a date,

I can't even buy myself flowers,

but i know i'm my own perfect soul mate,

talk to myself.

Wo0tz.
if i'm hilarious make some noise,
if you're prettaye make some noise.
Cause we got it from our MAMAs.
ALL THIS FUCK RIGHT HERE,
WE GOT ALL THIS SHIT
FROM OUR MAMAs.
(blame the mothers why don't you)

i ain't no fucking whore,
this is just a freedom of expression.
if you don't like me,
don't bother talking to me.

Okay, i'm done with this shytz.
I'm out ya'll.
LOVES! xD

happy birthday to jan again.

2007-11-14T19:42:00.001-08:00

First month anni!
was like super uber fun and sweet luh.
I LOVE BOYFRIEND.
time really passes,
but each day i'm with you it feels
like as if we've known
each other forever.
The closer I get to you.
The more i finally can feel what love
really is.
& the way we found each other was rather
weird and un planned for.
Through a friend was how we
got to know each other.
Never thought me and you would
end up together.
I thought it would be just one simple
meeting with you
and that's all i could have and nothing more.
But look at where we're at now.
The first time we met,
i didn't say this to you,
But when we parted i really felt
like i missed you alot too.
You were constantly on my mind,
every second from that day on.
and i kept denying the fact that i was madly
in love with you.
I thought, how could it be?
We've only met once.
WE couldn't be for each other could we?
But as the days went by,
my love for you grew stronger.
AS i stood next to you,
my hard beats a little faster.
And after all that we've been through,
just look at where we are now.
It really is just me and you.
Yeah i thank god we found each other.
Cause there's no one else i'd rather be with now.
Baby,
you make me feel special,
like no one else has ever made me feel.
I'm happy to have you around me too.
all in all,
i just really love you.
I think this love is for real and it's definitely true.

No matter how they toss the dice,
it has to be.
The only one for me is you
and you for me.
So happy together.
I can't see me loving nobody but you
for all my life.
When you're with me baby the skies will be blue
for all my life.

[this song means like alot to me man, & it's damn nice]

Artist: Colbie Caillat
Song: Bubbly

Lyrics:

Verse 1:
I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place

Chorus:
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

Verse 2:
The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under the covers stayin dry and warm
you give me feelins that i adore

Chorus:
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

Break:
What am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmmmmmmm

Chorus:
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

Verse 3:
I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

Chorus:
It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go...

2007-11-13T07:35:00.000-08:00

1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged

Favourites
Colour: Black, red, white.
Food: peppermint chocolate truffles
Song: Colbie Caillat- Bubbly
Movie: You got served, Stomp the yard, a walk to remember.
Sport: Cycling.
Day of The Week: Saturday
Season: Winter, Spring, Autumn
Ice-cream: Haagen Daaz

Currents
Mood: Sleepy and excited about tmr. (first month anni)
Taste: SWEET SWEET SWEET STUFF!
Clothes: Skinny jeans and printed tees.
Desktop:VERY BLUE.
Toenail:BLACK.
Time: 11:41pm
Surroundings:Warm and bright.
Annoyances: Kept in suspense of what's gonna happen tmr! dammit.
Thoughts:EXCITED, what the fuck is gonna happen tmr? ARGH!

First
Best Friends: My Ass or Maybe NANA.
Crush:NONE APPLICABLE (don't want boyfriend to feel like crap so, shhhh)
Movie:I have No clue.
Lie: Can't rmb, too many...
Music:WTH, i ain't so lame as to rmb dammit.

Lasts
Cigarette: well, last year... SORRY PEOPLE I AM A DISAPPOINMENT.
Drink(Alcohol):11thNovember2007
Car Ride: idk.
movie: Stomp the Yard(on the net) wo0tz.
Phone Call: an hour or more ago.
CD Played: IDK.

Have you ever:
Dated Your Best Friend: almost.
Broken The Law: UH HUH.
Been Arrested: nahhh. i get away SCOT FREE. wo0tz.
Skinny-Dipped: ...nope
Been On TV: YUPP YUPP!
Kissed Someone You Don't Know:NO WAY.

5 things you are wearing:
sec1 camp tee, green roxy shorts, undergarments.

4 things you've done today:
Friendster-ed, msn-ed, invited pear to my house, went out.

3 things you can hear right now:
Fan whirling, vehicles passing by, song- Hot by Avril Lavinge

1 thing you do when you are bored:
CAMWHORE! xD

5 losers who NEED TO DO THIS:
no one are losers to me, so no idea.
anyone who wants to do it, go ahead.
I don't friggin give a damn.

2007-11-12T03:50:00.000-08:00

Yesterday wasn't in the mood to blog
so today shall cramm all events from
ytd and today into this one post.
I'll try to make it as short as possible,
YESSA!

Yesterday:
Firstly woke up early in the morning
went for mass.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
*unimportant.*
Well went home,
took a nap.
then woke up bathe and change and
headed off to my dad's place.
When i reached it was only me, my dad
and his gf first.
They were preparing to kill the 3 crabs.
I killed two with my bare hands.
I FEEL DISGUSTED with myself.
how can an animal lover kill?
I feel upset and disappointed.
My dad said i should be trying "something new"
it's life and death...
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
then so yeah
the process was utterly gruesome
so i don't bother explaining.
Just know that when a crab is dead,
it drops off one of it's limbs.
YES,
it just falls off just like THAT.
there's no how and why.
IT JUST DROPS OFF DAMMIT.
yupp yupp.
so then they started cooking,
and when my bro and his gf came
and then followed by my sis,
we started eating the first courses,
devil's curry and green curry
followed by some salted sharks meat with chilli.
HMMMM.
sad luh.
POOR SHARKS.
tsk tsk.
I feel so CRUEL!
Nyaaaa~!
i will never be able to forgive myself.
anyway,
we ate and talked.
had laughs and stuff.
then had lychee martini too,
yummy.
AND awfully chocolate ICE CREAM,
it's super uber CHOCOLATEY.
wow luh!
yumm yummmy.
WHEEEE! xD
hahas.
then the cake was awsomely
chocolatey too.
the spongeyness was awfully spongey
and nice.
I LOVED IT! xD
happy early birthday JAN!
yes, that's me
WAHAHAHA!
tralalalala~!
so yeah.
watched soccer.
then yeah
went home around 1 am.
YES YES.
that's abt all.

Today:
Was fun.
I woke up in the morning and picked up my phone,
5 seconds later as i stared into the screen,
JIN called
and asked if he can come down to meet me.
Must have been last night.
WE sort of had an argument,
but see things turned out fine in the end.
All we have to know is that
no matter how many arguments we have
in the end we still love each other
and want each other around.
That's all that matters.
YES.
sorry baby, i was such a fool...
Thanks so much for making effort to meet me.
Glad you had fun today love.
Anyway.
i met JIN at hougang mrt station,
he waited quite long for me
because i almost knocked myself out cold,
i'd left a drawer above my head open
as i was bending to get smth
i'd dropped on the floor,
i lifted my head up only for it to hit the sharp
edge of the open drawer!
OUCHIES~!
i told JIN what happened,
and i said,
"i'm not clumsy!"
the same time he said,
"you're so clumsy luh"
SEE we think alike!
hahas...
We went hougang mall popular first
there was this book
it was really eye catching
JIN found it on the shelf
it was abt singapore and it's BAD english
and everything inside is really
HILARIOUS and quite true.
WHEEEE! xD
funny book.
enjoyed that man.
then we went town to wheelock place,
to go to this shop which sells,
miniature figurine food.
Uber cute.
But didn't manage to find JIN's little mini dimsums
He's so crazy over it luh.
If i can find it i'll buy for him.
LOL!
it'll make him really happy i'm sure.
and i'd do anything to make him happy.
I'll try to go to the ends of the world just to get smth
that will put a smile
on that boy's adorable face!
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
yes i do...
And we went to wait for kevin
at orchard mrt station,
sat at the stairs area,
JIN was somehow fascinated
and indulging
in the way my cheeks turn uber red
when i smile really hard,
or get embarrassed,
or laugh a lot! xD
YESSA!
hahas...
& i was indulging in boyfriend's
super ADORABLE dimples.
SO CUTEEEE.
i love his sexaye dimples.
WOOHOO!
i'm crazy over HIS dimples!
wheeeeee! xD
tralalalala~!
Baby has a wonderful smile,
and plus those awesome dimples of his,
HE LOOK UBER CUTE LUH.
be jealous people!
my boyfriend rocks!
and he DOES NOT look pai kia i don't care!
So anyway,
met kevin.
AND ahhh,
BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.
i'm so lazy to talk abt it luh.
Thanks baby for the candy cane anyway,
went cine.
HAIZ.
josh suddenly popped up from NO WHERE.
so coincidental luh.
hahas.
funny.
No wonder those three fools are best friends.
JIN/kev/Josh.
CUTE little 3 musketeers...
wooohoooo!
lalalalala.
then went home after all that.
before that we went to the youth park and watched
people skateboard.
how fun!
AND WENT HOME.
bye boyfriend.
WILL see you tomorrow again i guess.
YAY! i love boyfriend so much.
AND two more days til our 1st month anni.
14THNOVEMBER2007.
i'll remember you when you're gone,
and i know you'll remember me too.

; ♥ I LOVE YOU BOY, YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME.

2007-11-10T07:05:00.000-08:00

Today was quite fun...
i got to see darling JIN today.
I missed boyfriends so much luh.
He makes my heart
skip a million fast heart beats.
First went to meet them
at J8
Kevin, Josh, Jin
and some other ppl
from kevin's church/youth ministry?
Whichever...
Anyway,
they went to play at st wilfrid's.
Yes.
took a bloody cab there.
What a waste of money and time luh.
Fuck it.
Haha...
But whatever.
Paid & then went in.
They waited for their turn to start playing.
Yeah.
Me and Jin sat at the indoor area first
cause like, outside was raining.
Oh before that i didn't say yet.
There was this match going on ah,
Angmoh dudes against Singapore lang
the cheena singapore lang
go and push push
the angmoh dude.
Angmoh dude crazy luh went to kick
cheena singapore lang
The singapore lang not happy
they both like wanting to pick fight,
then well...
Angmoh dude tryna say sorry and shake his hand.
Singapore lang buay song scold the angmoh dude,
"kan ni na, cheebye, fuck you luh!"
Me laughing at the fact that
the angmoh dude probably didn't really understand
half of wad the cheena singapore lang was
trying to say...
WAHAHA! so funnaye luh.
Imagine if it was a black guy against an angmoh
you'll be hearing things more chim,
like this:
"you bloody motherfucker,
what is your problem fool?
you better watch
yo fucking ass you son of a bitch!"
WHEEEE! xD
i think black people are cool,
ICE COLDDDD.
sh sh shake it, shake it like a polaroid picture.
wo0tz.
PARTAYE LIKE A PORNSTAR.
tralalala.
So anyway,
i didnt eat breakfast yet
so boyfriend and I walked to the nearest
convenient store
to get me some food so i don't faint.
Boyfriend is really caring although
he doesn't really know
how to show it that much
I can it feel it a WHOLE lot.
yes yes.
then we went back to watch.
then went to the field after
talking and crapping
with marcus
the beloved CRAPPER.
yes he is the FUNNY man of the CENTURY.
yupp yupp.
Then we watched
after awhile we went off luh
cause other people's turn to play.
some of the guys had to bathe.
The rest just sat with me.
Haha which is,
Marcus, Josh, Kevin & Jin.
Yes.
Marcus went to take a soaked mop
and kinda mopped over
this bench that Josh was sitting on,
in hope that Josh will be innocent enough
to land his sorry butt on that
disgusting wet stinkaye chair.
& Josh came walking back
seeing me & Jin laughing he said,
"i know ya'll were talking abt me righhht?"
then he plopped his poor ass
unto that bloody chair
ME & JIN started laughing more.
Lol.
i think marcus did too,
maybe kevin was starting to get in on the joke?
HAHA.
whichever.
then we told Josh.
HE was kinda pissed
that he kena JACK.
goodness.
WAHAHAHA! xD
then after awhile
Marcus picked up the mop again
then he smelt it
& was like
WTF it smells like longkang water sia
Then Josh was like,
great now my ass smells like longkang luh.
WAKAKAKA!
so funny.
should have taken a picture of his face
picture perfect.
I SWEAR.
roflmao!
anyway
enough of that
we left to go eat
chicken rice.
YUMMY.
jin got confused by our order
which was fairly simple,
3 plates of roasted chicken rice breast meat
with one egg.
YES.
& we needed Jin to be the orderer
cause he's chinese &
the owners are chinese
so yeah.
GUESS chinese people are really
puh-ree-taye important huh?
YUPP.
then went to buy drinks at 7 eleven
the aunty should kena sued.
WANNA KNOW WHY?
are you that interested?
then ask me on msn fools.
cause too much vulgarity will come out
onto this post if i start talking
abt that old hag biatch.
SORRY.
see what I mean?
yessa!
anyway.
we almost missed the bus,
thanks so much
mr BUS driver
for waiting for our DARLING KEVIN
who was still paying for his drink.
LALALALA...
yes yes.
they went to play lan,
counter strike
for idk how long.
But it was getting boring after awhile
But i was entertained luh.
yupp.
We left.
Only leaving,
kev, josh, jin and jan(me)
WAHAHA!
we went to this playground thingy first.
Had to cross the fence wadeva
thang,
worse of all i was wearing a skirt.
But nevermind
i'm not that conscious anyway.
Look then look at my underwear loh.
I have nth to show anyway!
Hahaha...
Then we went to AMK library
read some,
ehem
INTERESTING and KNOWLEDGABLE
books...
LOL.
then went to kevin's house area thr.
Bought like buns to eat...
Yummy yummy..
then like waited for kevin to come back
down?
AS WE WAITED,
and waited,
i felt like buying a drink so i did.
YAHOOO!
waited fr kevin.
& then he came
Jin fetched me home
& kev and josh waited for a bus.
Cause kevin was going to Josh's house
idk wad gay things they gonna do
together luh, but yeahh.
JIN and I sat in the bus tgt,
on almost reaching our destination
i kept hearing this annoying hissing sound
i swear i knew it was some insect
and i found it!
LOOKING AT ME
with it's disgusting buggy eyes.
Behind some white color board like thingy.
It was flimsy luh so the cockcroach
was like able to crawl.
DUE TO MY SHOCK AND HORROR.
i squished the flimsy thang,
in hope that it would die
and be killed under my foot!
I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN the hissing noises
stopped.
But JIN and I stood up til the stop whr
we're supposed to alight.
I HATE COCKCROACHES or any
other bloody fucking INSECT!
so gross luh.
bloody mothereffers.
DIE! DIE! DIE!
oops sorry.
I just really dislike them alot luh.
YESSA!
anyway,
at my house JIN was like wanting to stay at the
staircase there.
TSK.
i waited for him to leave.
we stayed with each other there til 10.10pm like that?
then he walked me to my door.
My mum saw him.
SHE SAID ALOT OF HURTFUL STUFF.
she's so mean luh.
I know my boyfriend may look pai kia
but it doesn't mean his attitude and personality
is LIKE one.
He's the best ever luh.
THE NICEST,
THE SWEETEST,
THE CUTEST,
THE COOLEST,
THE AWESOMEST,
THE MOST LOVING.
he's everything good okayyy.
my mum's last words were,
"i don't bother to even try getting to know him
til he learns to put that hair down?"
just cause he spike his hair?
WTH?
she's being a big fat BIATCH again...
I can't stand it luh.
SO UPSETTING okayyy?!
mean asshole.
MY BOYFRIEND ROCKS.
no one is allowed to judge him,
if you dare,
I WILL PERSONALLY GO FIND YOU
& smash yr bloody face!
I'M SERIOUS PEOPLE.
keep yr insults to yrself...
Boyfriend is mine
& I'm his.
He told me he thinks of me everytime,
I felt uber happy.
He makes me smile with the most
simplest words and the littlest things
that he does for me.
I love him uber uber much.
NO ONE,
i repeat.
NO ONE CAN REPLACE MY DARLING BOYFRIEND.
he is too precious to me.
YES HE IS.

2007-11-08T23:51:00.000-08:00

I think bee hives are funny.
I just had a random thought of them
so don't mind me.
I am always sickeningly random.
I can't stand myself either.
Righttt.
Anyway,
today is a BORING
effed up suckish day
i woke up in the morning
with a splitting headache,
and still am clueless as to the fact
whether i'm having fever I not.
Which most likely I am having.
How nice.
FEVER= can't see boyfriend.
But anyway boyfriend says he might be working
so nevermind.
Boyfriend's a busy bee.
that lives in a bee hive?
Hahaha.
sorry enough with bee hives i suppose.
Well, but i really miss him.
Haven't seen the likes
of my baby for so many days.
I feel like my insides are dying slowly.
I cry about it,
but still what's the use of crying?
It's not gonna make baby
come flying from nowhere
into my arms,
it's been long since i've hugged him...
Sometimes I just wished he was here
for just a little while
so I could lean on his shoulder.
Baby may be bony,
but to me he's the most comfortable person to lie on.
I love him so much,
can you tell?
Well, i should stop whining about how much
i'm missing him.
Yes yes.
As baby always says,
"get a hold of yourself"
So yes i will try to pull myself together.
Just this time.
Lalalala.
Today's day really is killing me.
My head is still hurting like mad.
And 5 bucks is going down the drain
cause i can't go to collect
the shirt from Alice.
DAMN.
i also don't have enough money so wth.
Can't wait til i'm fourteen,
i wanna start working luh...
Dammit.
i shall end here.
BEFORE I DROP DEAD.

i love and miss you boy

2007-11-08T08:37:00.001-08:00

Camwhored today. pics below...
see see see.
NO INSULTS ALLOWED.
or i will hunt you down &
skin your backside til it's bloodshot red.
i am just kidding don't worry
FOOLS! xD

2007-11-08T07:56:00.000-08:00

Hello world.
Today went bugis.
with my "darlings"
Kevin and Josh.
Yes yes.
Anyway, we walked around
for idk what reason.
Oh yea, i was supposed
to pay Alice the money.
Then on second
thoughts i didn't
NOT ENOUGH MONEY.
yes yes.
WHATEVER.
so we walked around Bugis Street.
uber crowded luh.
We walk cross the road so freaking PACKED.
omg.
Then finally we got to the middle of the SHYTZ.
there was this guy
giving out flyers.
I looked at them and asked him,
"why when I come here the flyers always seem
to be the same?"
Then he was like
the manager no other ideas what.
Haha.
it was hilarious that he even answered me
Cause first of all
I wasn't even asking for his opinion
I was actually talking to myself.
But whatever.
I couldn't care less.
Lalalala.
Walked around Bugis Street.
tralalala.
Kevin didn't know his way around.
How fun.
And the drink stall selling was asking fruits to come.
In chinese luh.
dunno wad
"mu gua, xi gua, papaya, banana lai lai lai"
OMFG luh.
tsk tsk
i was rather annoyed at her.
It's like so crowded already then we have
to wait for Josh's banana shytz.
Then she keep calling fruits to come.
I really felt like smacking her
with my shoe.
That bloody idiot,
the next time I go there she better shut
her motor mouth.
Running nonstop, i hope the batteries die
soon.
But dammit,
she can recharge or buy new ones.
TSK TSK.
i hope the machine breakdown luh.
WAKAKA! xD
just kidding,
sorry luh aunty
don't come after me with your fruits okay?
please and thank you.
*smiles big, shows teeth*
we walked again.
Then went to MOS burger.
Josh bought us milkshakes,
and then again
I start singing the damn song.
LOL.
thank you Josh for the yummy milkshakes!
the kiddo is the best luh.
We crapped alot.
GOODNESS.
the good times oh the good times.
Woohoo!
yes yes...
JIN wasn't with us SADLY.
nyaaaa~[!]
i miss boyfriend so MUCH okayyy.
dammit.
Anyway,
we went to eat dinner then talked again.
yes yes.
then the guys left.
I went to meet sis & her friend Ling Yi.
yupp...
went inside played some pool.
FOR FREE.
and then yeah...
LALALALALA.
went home
cause mummy was nagging us to get home
DAMN HER!
yes yes...
SO NOW I'M HERE BLOGGING.
wad do you want with my LIFE????
oh right...
absolutely nothing.
hahas.

{♥} i love you boyfriend

2007-11-07T06:17:00.000-08:00

Today was uber fun,
first woke up early in the morning,
waited til 11pm to go cut my hair.
So yeah...
Went swimming with
Cheryl, Shiying, Tasha, Courtney, Carmen
and Georgia.
Had fun times fun times.
Then we went to AMK hub.
Met JIN at macs.
I miss him luh.
Haven't seen him for sooo long.
Yes yes.
Well tasha and the rest made off first.
They all had to go home early.
So i hung out with JIN dear first...
We walked around.
Was fun, i guess.
LALALALA.
then met his
cute lil grandma...
Teeheehee.
They ate, i watched...
Then walked again...
WHEEEE! xD
then i took a bus home...
i realised 74 is faster than 88 to go back home.
LOL!
BELOW ARE SOME PICS OF TODAY.

Well then when I got home today.
An unexpected friend came along in my life.
SHE IS THE BOMB.
my darling twinnaye,
words cannot express how much i love you.
YANLINGthedarlingTWINNAYE<33
you are LOVED very much
BY MEEEEE!
we have loads in common i swear.
and she is a happy happy kid.
WE talked nonstop.
that dearie made my day.
TWINNAYE,
stop saying I am prettaye,
you are so pretty too.
& twinnaye gave me a knew "name",
'prettyfool'
HAHA.
iloveherso.
Wait, am i starting to get obssessed with you darling?
I think I am,
so I should really stop here.
But I wanna let you know i'm so grateful
that you've walked into my life...
twinnaye you're mine forever, no escape alright love?
It's been so long since there was
so much laughter
in this house of mine,
family crapped today,
we were talking abt how when we were kids,
my bro always asked my
mum why my sis and I were so hairy.
One was a gorilla (my sister)
and one a monkaye (me).
And my sissy said smth abt
when she was younger
mummy brought em to the zoo,
my sis hated gorillas
and my bro was like pointing to them
and said to my mum,
"What's calista (my sis) doing there mummy?"
after that sis was scarred emotionally
for LIFE i think.
We talked abt ear digging.
Abt how our mum always had to
help us to do that.
LOL!
the joys and pains...
Hahaha...
So funnaye luh.
I made this thing up,
Mummy- The exterminator
Brother- The Procrastinator
Sister- The terminator
Me- The pesterator

We are the "ator" family.
LOL!
yes yes...
i started with my brother
cause he was apparently
procrastinating abt
handing over the freaking laptop
to meh.
WAHA! xD
so it went on...
we had laughter and pain...

{♥} i love you boyfriend

2007-11-05T21:10:00.000-08:00

One word to describe today:
PATHETIC
my bithday's gonna be rotten
first month will probably kick ass more.
depending on the weather pattern
But yes,
I don't really care anymore.
I asked mummy to buy me a b'day dress
and she said "no."
i was horrified.
"NO? WHAT DO YOU MEAN NO?!"
and she's all "what do you think i'm letting you have a party for?"
i was like, fuck you.
I didn't say it though.
i actually couldn't believe me ears
I thought the earwax King had taken over my eardrums
the sensation brought me to
feel one interesting emotion,
yes "FUCKED".
absolutely lovely.
I thought the whole bbq thing would be just for me & my friends
but nooooo,
I really don't want my mum & siblings to be
hanging around like pieces of
rotten dead meat keeping their monstrous EYES on me.
i can just have lunch with FAMILY in
the afternoon.
And then night bbq shall be reserved for me & my friends.
why?
Why can't she let me plan it the way I want?
I mean it is MY birthday after all.
Can't she let me have things my way?
It's only for one bloody day.
Not like she'll DIE.
goodness...
I hate this life.
IT IS ROTTEN & STINKAYE.
i sent out an S.O.S today
it went something like this:

I bathed twice today
See this is what boredom and crankyness does to me.
So if you care about my survival,
please pick up your phone and dial
81618601
to start helping
Jana Andrea Pereira now.
Please and Thank you people.

Right how fun is that...
I know
I AM AMAZING.
and totally unbelievable...
Oh and a "loan shark"
is after me.
I have to pay up the money by tmr.
I AM VERY VERY AFRAID.
so yeah, the money will be safe in your hands by tmr.
Relax luh...
*sheeeeesh*
it was only $30
But she had to send me a fierce sms saying:
Pay up the money in 3 days times.
I got that msg ytd,
I was afraid...
I really thought she was some scary mean loan shark.
DAMMIT.
halloween is over,
stop scaring little kids...

Below is a list of things I want for my birthday/1st month
which I know sincerely that i can never get from Boyfriend (but hey,
nothing wrong with wishing right?)

-a diamond plated belt buckle with my NAME (this is definitely wishful thinking)
-a bouquet of sweet smelling red roses with baby breath (imaginary)
-a wonderful crystal pendant with a chain (unbelievable)
-couple rings with our names engraved on it (awesomest)
-eighteen or twentytwo heart shaped balloons that reads "iloveyou" (sweeeet)
-a big soft teddy bear holding a heart pillow (cuddly much)
-a crown hairband with shiny diamontes (amazinggg)
-a self baked heart shaped chocolate fudge cake [!] (jaw dropping)

Haha.
That was all in the holy name of self entertainment fools...

Oh the joys...
The wonderful sensation tingling up & down my spine.
AMAZING!
and i talked to ELFIE about pirates
and how I love them
They let us watch movies by
providing cheap vcds
and now they've made it free and convenient for us
by putting up movies on the net.
So all in favour of supporting piracy,
raise your hands and say "I"
all in the name of PIRATES i tell you.
"ARRRR me maties... shiver me timber"
i wanna marry a handsome pirate with hopefully
a full set of (not rotten) healthy pearly white teeth,
dark brown mousse shaggy wavy shoulder length hair,
aquamarine sea green tinted eyes
and a strong sexy musculine body to carry me around.
I'm not that heavy though.
So yeahhhh.
I want JIN to be my sexaye pirate.
Maybe he might if i begged hard and long for it...
Yupp.

♥ i love you boyfriend

2007-11-05T04:43:00.000-08:00

Today was okay luh.
Nothing was really planned.
I just woke up, itching like MAD.
messaged baby,
He said he'd come over with some
ointment thingy.
So i was like,
alright...
So he came.
Firstly in the bus he told me,
he forgot the ointment,
then after awhile
he realized he took the bus on the wrong side
So he got off,
and he felt lucky cause the bus on the other side
which was the correct side to my house
came very quickly
and he ran to catch that bus.
& i waited like a fool at the bus stop.
amazing.
So we went around hougang.
Went to 401
i wanted to sit on the swing luh.
But there were little kids.
So forget it.
One of em was a FAT ASS,
swinging so high like mad.
she tryna break the swing or what?
OMFG.
weird kid.
So me & Jin sat down under some random block.
then we sat there and crapped & laugh.
GOODNESS, how fun.
Then we started to get bored,
made our way to hougang mall.
we went to the library.
SAT there and crapped.
& read books for DUMMIES.
it was really funny.
They teach you to be "relaxed"
more like going insane.
hahas.
Me & Him laughed like MAD.
we always seem to have a good laugh together.
HAPPY TIMES are all with BOYFRIEND.
*smiles uber wide, see meh teeth*
Hahas.
I want engraved couple rings,
it'll be so perfect if we could have them.
Sadly we don't have that much money.
$78. we're broke kids w/o a proper HOME.
hahas.
Just kidding...
We're fine luh.
But no money.
Baby's not working yet...
I don't think he'll ever.
He's so uber LAZEEEE.
yes yes.
But i don't mind.
i STILL love him no matter what.
Oh back to the day.
We left hougang mall & back to 401
to eat lunch.
YUMMY.
then bought lollipops.
YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY.
sat under a random block and crapped.
and laughed our asses off together.
We can always
make each other laugh luh.
then went to punggol park.
LALALALALA.
& now i'm here.
writing this boring post.
SORRY PEOPLE,
i'm not in an entertaining sort of mood today.
Nyaaaa~
i'm mad at my itchiness.

♥ i love boyfriend

2007-11-04T18:43:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA! xD

Today was prettaye fun,
but i have developed plenty
of mosquito bites.
My blood must be amazingly SWEET.
yes yes.
I was with JIN darling the whole day.
Yupp.
We met at amk hub,
he looked cute...
Shhh.
HAHAS.
yes yes.
we headed to ORCHARD.
First we went walking around town area.
Pop Doh doughnuts are the
YUMMIEST.
the dough is uber fluffy.
Ya'll should go try it.
From Taka, ngee ann city civic plaza.
Oh kays.
wadeva it is called.
DON'T TRY TO CORRECT ME.
hahas.
just kidding.
We walked around far east too.
I swear cheeks & lips have the coolest shit
you'd ever need.
YES.
so then at taka right.
This two ppl came up to me and asked.
"we're from the goddess skin... blah blah blah"
i DIDN'T pay attention luh.
Then she asked,
"but firstly are you 18 yrs or above?"
AND
i was speechless.
GOSH.
meh look 18 or older?
How nice...
Darling JIN was uber happy.
Idk why.
Maybe he felt less paedophilic then he
already is.
But wad the heck.
Seeing him smile is all i need
No questions asked.
FULL STOP.
we then walked all the way to dhoby.
When we were at PS,
we just walked through the place
like two mindless zombies.
It was fairly exciting.
The world of sports is expensive.
For just one tank top from
ETNIES
it's like $55!
wth luh...
So expensive,
just cause there's a freaking brand
on it.
Bloody Hell.
Wad is this world coming to.
well, then
we got out of there and headed to sengkang.
Baby had this weird plan
to sit on the LRT?
ohkays.
so we did.
I just wanted to make him happy luh.
That boy is like a small kiddd.
I swear.
So we went round twice on the freaking LRT.
& he couldn't just
shut up.
So embarrassing Luh.
But i still love him.
HAHA!
righhht.
We then headed to punggol end beach.
He liked it alot i guess.
It is pretty amazing there.
I swear.
It's wonderful...
HAHA.
yes yes.
so me & him sat there...
LALALALA.
& then it started raining.
VERY HEAVILY.
god.
WE RAN all the way back to the bus stop.
Was pretty far.
But wad the heck.
I like the rain.
It's so damn refreshing luh.
When we were in the bus baby
was like playing with his hair.
Making funny styles.
OMG!
he makes me laugh luh that boy.
Yes still had doughnuts with us,
so munch munch.
yeahhh.
We'll go back there soon I hope.
So then I went home.
Got online,
oooh
& who do i see,
Mister Kiddo
yes yes.
Joshua.
I talked to him.
He's very random when he's BORED.
seriously.
I wished him happy birthday
15 mins before it was gonna end.
I told him it was better late then never.
Yes yes.
Thanks Josh for easing my boredom.
THANK YOU!
hahas.
& yes you are THE KIDDO!
I don't care.
I can't believe you named me!
Nyaaaa~
I'm now THE OBSERVANT ONE,
inspired by that Kiddo,
mr Joshua Nair.
AMAZING LUH you...
hahas.
that was all for that day yo...
YUPP.
ended on a happy harsh note.

♥ i love you boyfriend

2007-11-03T04:50:00.000-07:00

Hello people,

today's post may be prettaye long yea.

Cause many many exciting things happened.
Let's start with the afternoon.
I went with my mother to Novena.
For mass. yes i love MOTHER MARY LOADS okayyy! xD
nothing wrong with being holy for awhile
right?
Well, see
I went out of the house looking like this.
|
vSay hello to little miss babyfat. >.<

Side ponytail, ain't I the coolest FREAK?

BE amazed, be very AMAZED! xD

Okayyy, after that I went back home to change,
and met up with Tasha darling.
We went to vivo for an ever so fun filled cam whore session.
& loads of things happened to but see the pics!
|
vFirst we headed to Carl's Jr.
Tasha bought cheese fries.
I bought this amazing chocolate milkshake,
& started singing,
"my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard,
and there like it's better than yours,
damn right it's better than yours,
i can teach you but I have to charge..."
LOL! xD

Tasha was eyeing at the words
i'd written on my hands
"BROKEN"
&
"EMPTY"
she asked me to pose cause she wanted to take a picture.
Lmao. she's the bomb...

Ooooh. I love my shades. IS ME THE BOMB?
YESS-AH!

& it's a Public Affair.

AWESOME random picture by ME.

Try seeing the world through my eyes.
-inspired and taken by Natasha Love

Another awesome random picture taken by ME ME ME!
>.< BABY, won't you tell me i'm a mess?

Who's your SEXAYE MAMA? oooh... Baracudaaa! >.<
Love is all that I need,
& I've found it there In your eyes.
It isn't to hard to see,
we're in Heaven.

I love you girl, through my darkest moments
you were always there for me.
When I needed you, I knew you'd be here...

Cool cable car! I wanna be on that.

My laughter reminds me of your smile.

WORK it for the camera BABAYE! work it, work it... UH~

She looks like a little kid that fell & started
CRYING. well, actually she was hiding
from the camera...

OH GOD! this looks so sexual,
i swear it's not what you think...

Another awesome random pic
by ME! ~

Say hello to little miss contrary,
that's me!
I know all the sick dumb bimbotic thick makeup
putting ah lians won't know what it means,
SO to brighten up your knowlege of vocab.
It can mean REBELLIOUS.
which i take it as...
Be smarter next time
& don't gimme that dumbass look like,
" DUH - UH I AM SO DUMB
I DO NOT KNOW THE MEANING OF CONTRARY"
& stare more at my lovely SHIRT.

She's watching me awkwardly from a distance...

We even camwhored in the mrt on our way home!
WHEEEE! xD

more pics below:
TASHA IS THE SEX YO! <333>When lima beans attack, look like a SPAZ.
now taking you to a different section of this post,

number of hot guys that caught my eye today: 3
one was when i was on my way to meet tasha,
this hot angmoh guy playing his white psp.
So sexaye luh.
I love his shaggy blonde hair.
He looked awesome.
Then the other 2 guys,
they were malay,
BUT SO HOT i swear.
Both wearing black skinnys.
all black luh.
Then they looked at me & smiled.
When I smiled back and looked at them as they were walking
and looking back at me,
they smiled even more.
They look so HOT luh.
But they look 18 ish,
so hopeless.

BUT ANYWAY, HOWEVER MUCH HOT GUYS GET MY ATTENTION
MY LOVE GOES OUT TO ONLY ONE BOY,
my darling boyfriend,
mr eugene ng.
So don't be jealous baby.
You know I'm yours.

♥ i love you boyfriend

2007-11-02T06:35:00.000-07:00

Today was fairly amazing.
I had to wait very long just to meet boyfriend.
But somehow the wait was worthwhile.
he was sort of cranky and upset,
I could tell,
tried to cheer my baby up.
It didn't really work.
so i just kept quiet & looked away.
I waited for him to feel better.
He took my hand in his,
sort of to assure me that everything's fine.
I didn't wanna say anything.
I sat silently
& watched as people walked past.
We walked around vivo.
As we walked the mood was starting to change for the better.
Boyfriend smiles loads more.
It made me smile too.
He looks awesome when he smiles.
Boyfriend says I have a nice smile,
But baby, yours is just as nice.
Boyfriend had flu today.
Or whatever.
TISSUE PAPER YO.
i should bring extras out the next time.
A guy always needs a handy girlfriend right?
Lol.
As in she has all he needs in her bag!
WAHAHA! xD
darling, i so can't wait for our 1st month yo.
12 more days Love.
time is passing by so slowly,
but all the more we'd get to cherish each moment.
When we're around each other
on our outing,
time passes quickly though doesn't it?
LOL!
My sentiments exactly.
did you know, i love your smile?
HAHA.
sorry,
the picture is in my mind.
PERFECTION & i see absolutely no flaw.
you're amazing.
you've managed to touch my heart in
a special way no other ex boyfriend has ever.
I love the way you do the things you do.
Baby don't stop,
cause i'm so in love with you...

♥ i love boyfriend

2007-11-01T05:53:00.000-07:00

Pearlyn is officially
a misunderstood little child.
People think she's blur,
but actually it's cause she can't hear them
sometimes.
So to clear misunderstandings.
PEARLYN SOH IS NOT A BLUR LITTLE SOTONG,
SHE IS A MISUNDERSTOOD CHILD.
& i love you pear.

Today was prettaye fun.
Went to pearlyn's house...
We tested "it" out...
WAS AWESOME.
i swear...
Missed boyfriend as usual.
Pearlyn & her audi screenshots.
Awesome.
I use that word alot apparently,
dammit.
SORRY if it effects you people.
ANYHOW.
i think that my mother seems to misunderstand me.
So i'm gonna briefly describe how I feel towards her.

Mother,
please when i walk into the house
everyday when I come home,
don't anyhow kaopeikaobu.
It's not appropriate words okayyyy.
But yes.
STOP NAGGING at me.
It's kinda annoying.
Please don't try to DIG into my personal life.
If you don't know anything abt me anymore,
it's because I don't want you to know.
Cause you will only make more noise.
You are like a buzzing bee,
you never fail to keep buzzing
constantly into my ear.
I feel pain from
your high pitched voice
& your degrading words.
and no,
your daughter is not a stupid fool.
and yes, i'm so SURE
i'm gonna go around and have
SEX with guys i BARELY know.
WHAT is your fucking problem?
I have a life...
I won't anyhow have sex okayyy.
DON'T cheapen your own daughter!
& stop messing up my life,
it's already effed up as it is.
Why make it worse on a daily basis?
IT'S become like a hobby to you.
Why are you so sadistic?
It's not working for you okay...
So my advice is for you to drop it.
& you and your bloody boyfriend
can break up & patch, break up & patch again.
don't tell me can?
Cause you know why?
I don't fucking give a damn.
I'm serious.
And you should just give me more SPACE.
ever heard of it?
i guess not.
Damn you.
If you love your daughter,
can you stop your freaking accusations on her?
Stop saying & "advising"
me on topics related to SEX.
because I really don't intend on HAVING a child now.
YESSA!
don't worry i won't give you an extra burden...
Life may be tough for you.
You keep asking me to put myself in your shoes.
Come on,
why should I
WHEN you don't even try putting yourself in my shoes.
AS IT IS,
our family is broken like some fuckshit.
BAD enough.
You always constantly reminding yourself
& looking back on the past.
MOVE FORWARD ALREADY CAN?!
cause i would love to just forget about the past
drop all the bloody grudges
& just have a pleasant future!
DAMN YOU!
stop being so bent on looking back
look straight can?
PLEASE luh!
Not like you don't have a life okayyy.
STOP BEING A NASTY DOG
when you know you are not one...
Don't even try hard cause it
is NOT working.
I REPEAT.
it's not working.
& I beg you,
just leave me alone.
if i wanna pierce my lip or tongue or anywhere,
it's for me to decide okay?
IT'S MY BODY
not yours.
there's nth you can do to stop me.
RMB that.
SO be a smart woman
& don't waste your effort, time or breath on meh.
YES MOTHER,
just let me be.
This girl is trying to gain her wings,
& when she does
when She's not afraid to be free,
she'll take flight and soar like an eagle.
Just you wait & see.

boyfriend, is missed by girlfriend.

♥ i love you boyfriend

2007-10-30T18:07:00.001-07:00

I wrote that in the sand. JANlovesJIN, & i swear it's true.

Freaky Misty thang, i suspect it's a paranormal being,
boyfriend thinks I imagine too much. >.<

Boyfriend, what are you looking at?

Bleagh! He's MINE! >.< (no touching)

My sexaye boyfriend, the bafoon. I love you boy! <33>

He's just like a chicken, awesome boyfriend. I still love you!

Twist. BLACK BABY! i'm bringing sexy BLACK!

Boyfriend doesn't like the i love me bag. LOOK AT that FACE!

Was adjusting my shirt DEAR!!!

I was apparently pointing to tiny little water droplets on leaves.
i'm such a little kiddo...

Was adjusting my fringe to make it neat & darling boyfriend
had to steal a shot?!?!

Without you or me, everything else is just empty.

2007-10-30T04:52:00.000-07:00

My webcam session with pear.
inclusive of screenies for viewing pleasure.

i love you girl

She loves ME! xD

She was abt to make a heart but i snapped too early.
LOL. xD

BLEAGH! i can be rebellious too daddy! xD

DADDY & DAUGHTER LOVE<33

I make her smile & she get's me good with that perfection.

2007-10-29T19:32:00.000-07:00

Fuck menstruation.
Fuck the cramps.
Fuck the mood swings.
& fuck the one who dares
even try to steal my boyfriend from me.
Anyone who touches him
will face the ultimate doom...
So kindly keep your hands to yourself
& off my MAN!
thanks so much...
*smiles sweetly*

Yes i know,
i am very contradicting.
But i can't help it.
It's just me.
I'm not a bitch in case you were wondering.
I'm just a loner with
a sexaye attitude.
Haha...
no la...
If you know me well,
you'll probably understand,
I'm just very protective over what i have.
Like my friends, family and
especially my dearest boyfriend!
mmmm.
I'm sorry.
Maybe i'm over doing it.
But i'm afraid to lose you boy.
It's not that i don't trust you.
For god's sake i've never
trusted anyone this much...
It's just that no matter what.
Everyday my only fear that resides deep within
is that of losing you love.
I can't lose you...
Cause i'd be lost without you.
I can't sleep without you on my mind.
I can't breathe if you're not by my side...
I can't take a step forward without you guiding me.
I can't cry my heart out without leaning on your shoulder.
I can't see things clearly if you weren't there to show me.
I wouldn't love anymore if you're not here.
Boy,
you are all i longed for.
all i ever wanted and needed...
I can't let you go.
But if letting you go makes you happy,
i'll try to.
No matter how much hurt it would bring to me.
I'd feel the purest of pains
just to see you smile.
Boy you're making my life
so worthwhile.

My insides are killing me...
As i imagine your face placed next to another girl,
a different one.
Not me anymore...
The picture perfect smiles.
Would you be happier if you were with someone else?
Do i make you feel different & special?
Did the things i do for you make
a huge difference & impact on your life?
Did I effect the pace of the beating in your heart?
Did i make you lose your breathe with each touch?
I wanna know boy.
Everything i don't dare ask you.
I'm asking you now,
tell me please baby...
Cause I can't say it to your face.
I don't know how.

Baby, tears roll down my face
as i think of the ways i could be replaced.
Carve me in your heart?
so we'll never be apart?
at least tell me and assure me that i've left pleasant
memories behind.
at least remind me and whisper to me that you
loved me most of the time.
my heart's aching and it's sore.
but why do i keep coming back for more.
I don't wanna play this like it's a game
but baby you're slightest movement is driving me insane.
I love the way you play with my fingers.
I love the way you stare at me.
I love the way you'd hold me tightly.
I love the soft kisses you plant on my cheeks.
I still feel them everyday.
I'll remember the warmth of your touch.

Baby, i can assure you.
You have left a huge imprint in my mind,
heart, body and soul.
You're everything to me.
and no matter what happens.
If we don't make it together
at the end of the armsrace.
At least know that you've
given me sweet memories
that can never be erased
nor can they be replaced.
i love you boy,
i cherish each moment that you're Mine.
No one else's...
but in time to come,
things may be different.
You may belong to some other girl,
and me to another guy.
But baby,
let's remember the times.
You'd stick by me,
and i'd stick by you.
Remember all the silly things we'd do.
It was just us two,
yeah it was me and you.

But baby,
for now let's embrace what we have
before it's gone
and we can't get it back.

♥ i love you boy

2007-10-29T08:53:00.000-07:00

Hi, it's me again yo...
YES.
today was FUN.
of course.
I was with my dearest boyfriend
Oooh, he is the Love.
First actually i was in school
supposedly to clear lockers.
But in the end we were too lazy.
Tasha & shiying finished off
their cca thang
then we headed back.
We'll I went home that's all i know.
yes yes...
JIN called.
wanted to meet at outram.
So yeah.
went home to get changed & rushed to the mrt station
it was sort of drizzling in hougang.
Then took the train.
Put on my sexaye white headphones
& there goes ppl staring at me
like i'm some kinda freak of nature...
Free show ah?
I smiled randomly to people who stared,
HARD.
lmao. xD
i'm so nice luh...
then JIN already reached outram when i was only at potong pasir?
GOSH.
that boy has bad time planning.
hahas, that only makes him more adorable dammit!
so we headed onto the green line.
to Simei first.
walked around this mall
called East Point?
or whatever it was.
Nth exciting there yo...
Pretty boring.
Yes yes.
it was sort of raining by the way.
LOL!
So when the rain subsided,
me & Jin headed to the mrt station
to go to pasir ris park.
WE bought doughnuts.
Yes we CANNOT resist the temptation!
yummy doughnuts!
Jin darling is a very messy eater.
But he's so funny like that.
Everything that boy does seems to make this girl smile.
i love him yo.
then we walked to pasir ris park...
Hmmmm.
was drizzling.
we were hoping the rain would like stop.
But nooooo.
It poured more heavily then we expected.
But we sat in the rain together,
on the exact seat where he confessed his
true feelings for meh...
Gosh how sweet.
>.<
we kept each other warm.
The rain wasn't doing much good to us.
But at least we were happy just to have each other there.
I like his warmth.
We started to walk down the beach as the rain subsided
a little bit again.
LOL!
was fun.
I wrote
" JAN ♥ JIN "
& boyfriend took a pic secretly
but i found it,
so it wasn't so sly afterall.
You can't hide things away from my eyes boy.
we camwhored a little.
very fun.
We're spaz kids i swear.
But i LOVE him soooo much.
I don't know when i'll be seeing my dear again.
TSK.
my mum is being a bitch.
LONG STORY.
dammit luh.
i miss JIN so much already.
each minute away from him
makes my heart ache more fiercely.
hope he calls me now luh.
cause i really need him here!
DAMN these bloody period cramps...
& the freaking moodswings.
WTH.

♥ i love you boy

Me & Mr Boyfriend

2007-10-25T04:59:00.000-07:00

I love mr boyfriend truckloads.
Love is the deepest feeling
and the fastest express lane,
the funniest entices,
most wonderful experience,
beautiful smiles
and perfect symphony.
enthusiastic faces
no more empty places.
Boy,
no matter where I go
even if i'm by myself
I don't feel so alone anymore
it's like I can always feel you near.
I can hear your deep voice in the silence of the night.
I can hear that mellow drone
that resounds through my thoughts.
I just think of you
and everything seems better.
I've never felt more real in my life.
I'm so happy now that I've found you here.
I know I belong with you.
My hands belong in the midst of your palms.
My eyes belong to the lingering image of you.
My tears belong on the edge of your shoulders.
My heart belongs right next to yours.
i love how your heart beats with mine.
it's a simple ringing melody
that seems to beat all in time...
i love how you look in my eyes
you make me feel like everything's saved.
You're my salvation from all the wreckage.
you're the picturesque beauty beyond the clouds.
you're an unexplained and undefined magical spell.
you're everything to me...
i'm gonna give you my all.
if you take me into your life...
show me who you really are inside.
Boy,
don't be afraid to let me see...
cause my love for you will remain unchanged.
i want to be there through your ups and downs.
let me wipe your tears when no one else is around.
let me try to pick you up when you fall.
let me do everything & give you my all...
i need you to tell me everything.
good or bad
happy or sad.
Baby, don't hide away anything from me.
That's not what i want from you.
Will you be dedicated to me
like how i'm dedicated to you?
please tell me that you'll always be true.
Cause darling, i'm madly in love with you...

♥ i love you boy

2007-10-23T18:31:00.000-07:00

CLICK FIVE CAME TO CHIJ SJC!

MY SCHOOL !

wo0tz.

everyone was totally psyched.

cause the deejays only said we'd be getting click five merchandise.

But as our so called merchandise

came rolling in,

i guess they suddenly magically transformed

into the whole band itself!

OMFG!

couldn't believe my eyes.

Kyle strolled down...

I almost fainted.

I was literally SCREAMING my ass off.

i wanted to cry tears of JOY man...

TSK.

and they sat down at the arranged table

on the school hall's stage.

and KYLE said into the microphone,

an ever awesomely sexy

"surprize".

OMG!

everyone went wild!

literally...

KYLE PATRICK IS THE SEXY LOVE.

i can't believe they came to our school...

The aftermath of the event is still lingering

in the back of my mind.

OMFG!

i love him...

the drummer is uber sexaye too.

he was sitting right next to KYLE<333 gosh.

then they left. EVERYONE RAN

just to watch them leave? OMG!

we are seriously KA- RAYE- ZEE.

lmao.

that was the best click five merchandise EVER!

Today today.

2007-10-22T04:03:00.000-07:00

Yo!
anyways...
today i finally went to school.
LOL.
yes.
checked my results...
sucked luh.
i just pray i don't drop to Normal Acad.
But
the class monitor says everyone
got promoted to express.
So, i still have a glimpse of hope...
Lord have mercy on me.
Please let me go express...
I'll work much
much much harder
next year!
I PROMISE!
i'll be a good girl,
& do everything right
and and
i'll always be NICE.
nyaaaa~
anyway,
back to my day in school.
well, we didn't have much to do
so the girls & me
played truth or dare first
then we played spin the bottle...
LOL.
we kissed each other.
so adorable luh.
NO NOT ON THE LIPS.
ON THE hand & cheek luh...
yes yes.
my right hand got kissed
by many ppl today...
gosh.
funny luh...
our reactions was really darn funny.
sorry.
HAHA.
yes yes...
oh well.
then we went to do this quiz thingy in the computer lab.
it was uber lame luh.
fuck care about that...
sorry for the profanitys.
>.<
wahahaha...
then after school,
me & sheena went kovan.
i finally found my black hoodie.
is not full black but i'll make do with it luh.
it was only
14.50 after all.
half price leh...
LMAO.
and it was the last one on the rack...
lucky lucky meh.
i really needed it.
yes yes.
got my other stuff too.
HALLOWEEN here i come.
*smirks*
yes yes.
so anyway
after that went to chinatown
to follow sheena to buy her fabric
for her outfit.
LOL.
yes yes.
then went to taka
to get something...
then ate kfc.
then cheryl came along.
wakaka.
yes yes...
went home after that luh.
sorry to cheryl...
meh & sheena needed to get home early.
SORRY U COULDN'T GET UR MATERIALS!
>.<
then went home to bathe.
so here i am now.
HEY ALL YOU PPL.
smiles! xD

♥ i love you boy

2007-10-21T05:15:00.000-07:00

I'm at it again.
Yes yes.
Anyway.
Today went to meet kevin early in the morning
for 9.45am mass at
Christ the King.
yupp.
AWESOME.
the priest was kinda weird.
But anyway,
who cares right?
LOL.
i meant that in the least evil way possible.
then after mass we went to meet jonathan
yes yes.
Went to take a bus
to the lan shop
somewhere in AMK.
wherever, whatever...
met his other friend, Joshua in the bus.
LOL.
anyways,
they played...
& played.
As I went on my way to AMK mrt station
to meet my dearest baby,
JIN ♥
yeahhh.
I missed my happy pill loads.
then we first headed down to plaza sing
to go buy the skin for my creative zen STONE plus.
*flashes huge smile*
LOL.
was awesome.
Full Black Baby!
that's what i'm talking bout.
HAHS.
don't bother about my so called retardation
it's very natural
for a girl like meh... xD
wakakaka
So after that we went to eat at kfc.
Well, i ate,
Jin just crapped while I ate.
Some guy looked like a cross over
between super mario & something something
i forgot what it was.
DAMN.
but it was really true luh.
He really looked a bit like super mario.
we laughed our asses off together,
like we always do.
Yes yes.
We're always happy.
WE'RE HAPPY PEOPLE!
so what to do?
LMAO.
uh huh...
Then we went to meet kevin & josh & jon & marcus
at the mrt station escalator there.
WHATEVER, whichever...
yupp.
Went to play pool.
DAMN i suck at it.
oh well...
But i managed to get in 1 or 2 balls into the pocket thingys...
wakaka.
yes i know it sounds wrong.
SHUT UP & MOVE ON WITH LIFE FAGGOTS!
just kidding.
you know meh...
LOL.
yes yes.
ANYWAY.
the guys had some competition thingy.
...
YUPP.
well,
it was a draw?
BETWEEN kevin & marcus.
YES YES...
hoorah!
then went to cine...
josh went to collect his prize.
WOOHOO.
JIN seemed uber proud of him...
Like a father proud of his dearest SON.
oh gosh...
the fatherly instincts are acting up?
wahaha.
ROFLMAO! xD
so he took a video.
funny funny.
oh yeah.
& a vid of kevin's awesome
PAI KIA walk...
signature walk man...
OOOH.
yes yes.
VERY FUNNY.
& then we ate at BK.
crapped like ytd.
FUNNY! xD
i loved today.
THOSE PPL ARE AWESOME TO HANG WITH!
awesome i tell you.
YES.
& we're all in the same boat.
That makes it really cool.
Guess we all feel the same
in one way or another.
Then i had to leave.
SADLY.
was alrdy late.
Mum nagged again when i got home...
I hope I don't drop to Normal Acad man.
My mum said she'll be bloody
disappointed.
OH, fuck all this stress luh.
I just wanna enjoy my life while I can...
But how to when got fucked up things like this?
I already tried my best,
if it ain't good enough.
I AM TRULY BLOODY FUCKING SORRY.
get that in your head.
PLEASE
&
THANKS
MUM.
don't make my life miserable anymore can?
i beg of you.
Let me live my life how I wanna live it...
I'll learn
if you just let me spread my wings and fly
& even when I fall
let me
or make me pick myself up
all on my own.
I'll learn
& I'll grow...
I'll be strong like you.
I promise you, mummy...
Cause I love you so.
Do you know?
Bet you don't.
I don't know exactly how to show you.
But mum,
I'M REALLY CARE ALOT ABOUT YOU.
if i'm another disappointment
then i'm really apologetic.
But rmb mum,
it's still my life...
Not yours,
not any one else's.
SO,
i decide.
I decide how I live.
& who I love,
what I do...

♠ SEXY LINGERIE & A BOTTLE OF RUM, BABY TONIGHT WE'RE GONNA GET OURSELVES SPRUNG. ♠

♥ i love you boy

Jan's Life

2007-10-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

The day started off today,
quite windy.
It was a good day to head down to 401
I sat on the swing
with my headphones & my awesome music.
I was on for about an hour straight.
To all the kiddos
who didn't get a chance to sit on the swing today
because of my selfish,
"it's all about my alone time today" Day.
I am truly apologetic for my immature
behaviour.
I actually stooped so low
to act like one of you ungrateful little kids
who will grow up to learn,
what I did to you was for your own good.
You kids need to learn to be
PATIENT.
ever heard of that word?
Nah,
didn't think so...
Lol.
I am so sorry kiddos.
I promise to be nicer next time around.
Today,
I really needed to relieve myself.
I hope ya'll understand.
One day,
you'll learn that being like me
is the best thing you can ever be.
Appreciate my teachings
young ones.
May the eternal "JAN FORCE" be with you.
I just love how I crack myself up.
Afterwards,
I went to meet aileen & eileen.
Yupp.
SORRY IF I PANGSEH YOU ALL.
you said to go with them
so I DID!
nyaaaa~
i won't do it ever ever ever AGAIN!
so hung with the twins for awhile...
then went & met kevin.
yupp.
blah blah blah blah blah.
day goes on...
crappings...
blah blah blah.
etc.
ETC.
eeeetc.
went home around 7pm
reached around 7.50pm
yes yes.
talked to jonathan...
i think i changed his first impression of me?
LOL.
it's a good thing.
haha.
yupp...
so guess i ain't so anti-social
afterall heh?
wo0tz.
>.<
i love all you people...

♥ i love you boy

2007-10-19T19:06:00.000-07:00

Hello world,
it's been a week since we've been together.
Finally...
But my dear,
doesn't it feel like we've been together
for more than just a week?
Cause I feel so close to you
even when you're so far apart from me.
You know I love you don't you?
I hope you won't ever leave.
Remember to tell me if
there's anything that's bothering you.
I only wanna know what's on your mind.
That's all.
& please don't lie to me
or give me stupid excuses.
Cause boy, I don't like those things.
and i'm smart enought to tell
what's right & what's wrong my LOVE.
just tell me the truth,
cause I wouldn't mind...
I'll give you all the space & time you need
if you ever just ask for it.
I'll give and do anything to make you happy.
I can't make promises to you.
But, just know I'll try
my best to keep to my words.
& Baby, if you ever make promises to me
fullfil them?
I hate empty promises.
They're not worth my time.
& baby, i hope this is all not a game to you,
Cause if it is,
don't waste your time
& don't try wasting mine.
I won't give you heartaches
if you try your best to heal mine.
I'll be your favourite medication
& you my one and only happy pill.
You keep me alive.
& you're the reason I keep on breathing.
Each minute of me knowing
that i belong to you
& you belong to me,
makes me weak at my knees.
I can't believe this is happening...
It really all seems like a dream.
A picture perfect image,
i never thought I could have.
I never imagined you would just walk into my life
& show me the colours I never thought I
would be able to see.
My world was black & white before I found you.
You've painted those pretty colours
in front of my face.
I love the feeling of you
right next to me...
I feel it everyday,
every single second,
every single minute,
and every single moment.
Even when you're not literally near me.
I can feel your heartbeat
beating upon mine.
The rhythm is a perfect symphony
it beats all in time.
I love the way you look at me.
I love the way you walk towards me.
I love the way you flash your smile.
I love the way you laugh with me or at me.
It's all the same.
I just love you baby.
You take each breath away from my lungs.
I'm falling in too deep in love with you.
But I like the feeling,
it's so new.
so real,
everything I ever wanted to feel.
You made me feel it baby...
I'm happy right now in this moment of my life,
because you walked right in and showed me true happiness.
I smile for not just anyone now darling.
It's only for me & you.
You make me smile the brightest smile
which no one else can see...
You are the music in me.

♥ i love you boy

2007-10-19T08:56:00.000-07:00

Baby,
it's almost a week
that me & you are together.
I loved every single moment.
& I'm sure we'll last longer to spend
more of these happy times
TOGETHER
i wanna hold you in my arms
for as long as you'd let me.
Let me breath in
every inch of you,
so that you can be kept here
in me for more than an eternity.
Baby,
i'm sorry for making you go the extra mile.
You did that just to make me happy.
Didn't you?
I think so...
Thanks anyway baby.
Whatever the reason was...
You made me feel alot better.
On Friday the 19th of October 2007.
You made me see how important
i am to you...
I feel every bit of your love baby.
EVERY SINGLE INCH & millimetre
Your touches makes me weak darling...
Do You Know?
I think you do...
i love the way you do the things you do.
I feel so brand new.
I need you more than ever now.
Each day I realize I can't live a day without you?
We've been through so much honey,
we've lost too much.
Please tell me,
you're not gonna be one of the special things
that just suddenly disappears.
Tell me you'll stay here?
just for me... only me.
No one else, but me.
Is it only me you see in those eyes?
I wanna be the only,
your only one.
My heart fully belongs to you.
You've taken it.
Please promise me you'll handle it with care.
You won't break it will you?
I won't break your fragile heart.
I'll safe keep it
as close as possible to mine.
I'll mend it as if it were my own.
Cause darling,
you're a part of me now
and I am a part of you too...
This Love is so REAL
i've never felt more
visible than I do now...
You make me feel like I really am special.
That I do deserve to be happy.
Baby, don't stop what you do,
Cause I'm loving it.
I'm feeling it.
I'm wanting it.
I'm needing it.
I'm yearning for it.

HONEY, I LOVE YOU SO.

♥ i love you boy

Dolphins massacre in Japan

2007-10-17T00:33:00.000-07:00

DOLPHINS MASSACRE IN JAPAN!

PLAY A PART IN HELPING THEM!

PLEASE PEOPLE!!!!

Recently I came over the news
of dolphins being massacred in Japan.
This has got to stop.
Their goal is 500,000 signatures.
But so far only about 1000 signatures have been petitioned!
I played my part in signing the petition to stop this.
It would help alot if you could play a part too.
This is the website to sign
the petition to save these dolphins
and to stop them from being massacred.

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/553308273

I honestly hope that everyone will play a part.
You could do a little deed
& it would make the biggest difference.
So please, save the dolphins!
They are our friends and not our enemies.
So why kill?
When we can save them...

PLAY YOUR PART TODAY! STOP THE DOLPHIN MASSACRE!

people i am serious...

Please view the video in the link below,
for a rough idea of what is going on!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OsEEmmIGtFg

i cried after watching this video people.
I hope all of you after watching this will,
have a heart and play a part...

And also people,
this is inspired & i was reminded by Clare.
That Jennifer Lopez
otherwise known as J.Lo
is a huge fan of FUR.
we all now.
Because of her sick
furry fantasies
many fur coated animals
have been
SKINNED ALIVE.
people this is so real.
we must BRING J.LO DOWN.
visit this website for more information:

http://www.jlodown.com/

thank you people.
I really hope everyone will play a part.
SAVE THE ANIMALS OF THE WORLD...
they're innocent afterall.

2007-10-16T18:33:00.000-07:00

I officially miss him so much.
I keep thinking of him.
It hurts so bad I can't sleep.
I just want to spend every waking minute
with my darling boyfriend.
I just wanna see his face
every single passing second.
It really hurts,
that I can't see him.
But, I'm sure he knows I don't mind.
He's got things to do.
I don't wanna pull him back.
What kind of girlfriend would do that?
I just want him to be happy.
& the last thing I wanna do
is to give my baby pressure...
I wanna take care of him,
I'm sure I'll find ways to do so without meeting up
every single time right.
& yes we do need our space I guess.
I really hope things work out between
us.
Because there's no one else I'd rather be with,
& no one else I can see myself with.
He's teaching meh slowly,
that I should enjoy every bit of my life.
& that I deserve this happiness.
I deserve having him.
Besides all of that,
I wanna let him know,

Darling you have given meh more than enough.
you're giving meh
more than what I asked for.
Everyday with you is like a brand new chapter.
Fresh & yet you leave meh out of breath.
I could never want anything more
from what you're already giving.
By even putting a smile on my face everyday,
is enough to make this girl happy.
As long as you're always by my side I wouldn't mind.
You don't have to go to extremes to make meh happy.
Because without doing anything,
you just get meh.
& Darling, you've got meh good...
I love you for who you are,
for the effort you're putting in to make me the happiest
girl in the world.
& baby, you're already succeeding.
Please just keep at it.
I don't ever want you to stop...
Will you lose feelings for meh?
If you do,
please don't tell it to meh in my face,
just turn around
& walk away from meh.
Without saying one word...
But I hope that would never happen.
Cause we're so perfectly happy together...
I was meant for you,
& you were meant for me.
Let's be together forever cause now we're finally free.

♥ i love you boy

2007-10-16T05:35:00.000-07:00

You Are An Understanding Girlfriend!

You care about your guy, so much that you tend to put him first
And while this makes your relationship smooth, sometimes you let big things slide
Still be your understanding self, but if something really bothers you - let your guy know
He'll still want you, even if you occasionally disagree

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

You Are 19% Selfish

In other words, you're a warm, caring considerate person.
Just make sure to get your way sometimes. There's a fine line between unselfish and pushover.

How Selfish Are You?

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

You are a Total Romantic

For you, love is like a fairy tale.
Or magic. Or a Meg Ryan movie.
Problem is, you sort of want all three.

You bring the spark in the relationship
In turn, you expect your guy to keep the fire burning
Not a bad deal, as long as you find the right Prince.

Are You a Romantic or Realistic Girl?

2007-10-16T04:48:00.001-07:00

AWESOME PICS WITH MY EVER SO DEAREST boyfriend.
<333

The day started with these simple pair of shoes

& i was nervous with butterflies in my stomach as
i stood so close to you.

then i get comfortable... i'm a spaz kid what can I say!

Twist to meh sexaye black leggings and prettaye shoes.

Muacks to the boyfriend... ooh, you know i love you so.

mmm. I'M SEXAYE LIKE THAT. uh!

TWIST TWIST to the ever AWESOME boyfriend! xD

nice t shirt. Twists to the st thomas t shirt. wo0tz!

Hey there darling, why look away? i'm standing right here...

YAY! yes yes, look at MEH! <333

Now, where are YOU looking at again? nyaaa~

I wanted you to know, i love the way you laugh. I wanna hold you high &
steal your pain away...

So many people walking by, so many faces...
But only you caught my eye...

♥ i love you boy

mmmhmmm

2007-10-15T18:40:00.000-07:00

Hello again.
i officially am pissed off with
BLOGGER.
it simply refuses to upload
my bloody pictures.
what is the freaking problem?
i don't understand luh.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck it all man
anyway,
i really wanted to upload those pics.
& my sis is off to jakarta
today til saturday
so no more camwhoring for meh
til then.
maybe i could use someone's hp?
haha.
that would be evil...
nyaaaa~
i'm pissed off yet still smiling?
wtf?!
yesterday was loads of fun.
yeah...
i went to meet him.
WHO ELSE?
duh!
don't be stupid & start asking.
i may be changing blogskins.
i don't know.
but, i think i should.
cause this blog skin totally
doesn't suit my current feelings...
wakaka.
but, somehow i'm far too lazy to bother changing.
i can't let this blog just die though can I?
LOL.
no i can't.
i hope later on,
the system would finally allow meh
to upload those bloody pics
of meh dearest.
>.<
if not i will cry my eyes out.
YEAH right...
i ain't no crybaby no more...
LMAO.
i'm talking crap as usual
to self entertain.
IT'S ALL IN THE NAME OF SELF ENTERTAINMENT.
god bless meh...
teeheehee.
*chuckles & vibrates violently*
oooh
vibrate?
HAHA
sorry don't mind meh perverted state of mind.
maybe my hormones are
raging too fiercely?
but, i don't think so...
well
heck care luh...
i'm bored so i'm typing this damn bloody post.
ALL in all, it's just to express
how effing fucked up
this bloody blogger system is,
& most probably it's gonna hate meh for cursing it.
but, who cares?
you think i care ah?
well, think again
cause i don't freaking give a damn!
you hear meh mr blogger system!
i don't care abt you or any of your
SHIT for that matter.
GO DIE BLOGGER!
go & eat yourself alive & convulse in your fears.
Cause i will be your biggest nightmare.
& believe meh you do not
wanna see meh when i'm
angry & fired up.
so while i'm still sane,
pls piss off...

*& i love the way you make meh laugh*

2007-10-13T20:58:00.000-07:00

Hello yo!

hmmm

today woke up early in the morning

as usual,

cause my darling winnie called meh.

GOSH

so i went to meet her.

we were planning

to surprize GIZELLA.

but she surprized us instead.

DAMMIT.

where are you girl?

I miss the likes of her mannn.

yesyes.

ANYWAY...

finally passed arnold back

his mp3 player.

SAYONARA to that.

Lol.

i'm funny?

yes yes very.

& i self entertain.

FREE OF CHARGE.

& i'm a chambermaid,

FREE OF CHARGE!

LOL.

you want some free service?

LOL.

come to meh baby!

WAKAKA!

i'm talking crap don't bother.

anyway,

i thought of HIM

the whole day...

missing the way he took my breath away.

DAMN.

stop it.

i can't think of him too much.

my insides are convulsing!

I FEEL LIKE i'm.

possessed.

wo0tz.

CAMWHORED with winnie dear!

WOOHOO! my dearest! i love you... more than words can put it! xD

Yo kids. we're from the NATIVITY CHURCH KINDERGARTEN.

yeah right. xD

2007-10-13T09:11:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE. xD
i am extremely happy today...
WHY?
oooh,
thanks to that extra special someone.
MMMM...
all i can say is,
I LOVE YOU
i love you alot.
aishteru
Honey, you took my misery away today.
with a simple "i love you", you took my breath away.
It's you I wanna live for,
& don't you ever think you're not good enough.
Cause you're the best thing that's happened.
without you i would never find my heart.
& I found it deep inside you.
boy, my love for you is true.
Never have I been this deeply in love.
you're the special one,
the reason for me to live,
to breathe,
to survive and to believe.
I have faith in you,
that you would never do anything to hurt me.
At least you wouldn't hurt me on purpose.
I don't mind your flaws.
I love you for who you are.
There's no need to change for me,
there's no need to hide from me.
Whatever more that i see,
i'll still love you.
I'll stay however long you want me to.
I'll protect you and keep you warm.
I promise you.
I'll try my best not to ever hurt you.
Or make you sad,
or fucked up inside.
I wanna try to make everything right.
& baby, i'm not perfect
i'm sure you know that well.
I'll eventually reveal my flaws.
When those times come,
will you promise to stick by me
& except me for who I am inside?
cause, i'd except all of you...
No matter what.
This i promise you.
Give me your heart & i won't break it.
I'll keepsafe all of you darling.
iloveyou.

AMK with KEVIN

2007-10-12T17:57:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went out with bestfriend
KEVIN
haha.
anyway. first i went to
take 88 down to meet him,
he didn't tell meh to stay on the freaking
BUS.
so i got down.
and we had to walk to AMK hub,
thanks to him.
LOL.
no la, MY FAULT okayyy?
wakaka.
anyway.
we walked walked walked there.
quite fast actually.
YES YES.
so we went to arcade first.
I needed energy to get high first.
Played drum mania.
AGAIN.
but it was version 1 so i totally FAILED.
that drum mania machine
totally demoralised meh.
PLAZA SING & suntec city one
is much more user friendly
towards meh only.
HAHA.
i'm special what...
LOL.
i'm uber thick skinned man.
wo0tz.
then it started raining after awhile
so meh & kev went to macs
cause i was hungry too.
LOL.
i'm always hungry it seems...
hmmm
yea.
i ate my regular.
what i always eat at macs:
chicken mcnuggets student meal
upsized
drink changed to sprite.
with curry sauce
HAHA.
i'm so funny man.
NO okayy maybe not.
so anyway,
we ate and sat there & talked
waiting for the damn rain to subside.
Then we walked to the library.
YUPP.
it's really big.
NICE TOO.
haha.
condusive environment
a decent place for meh.
LOL.
then we left the library after awhile.
HMMMMM.
yes yes.
went to buy waffles.
HAHA.
i bought two.
don't know why...
maybe i was hungry?
LOL.
yes i think so.
we went to AMK hub
to walk around.
went to the NTUC there.
they had cool halloween material
or should i say STUFF.
haha.
funny....
kevin made meh blog abt this.
to remind him to go back.
& I shall go back myself too...
woohoo.
can't wait for halloween luh.
But waiting for pearlyn
to CONFIRM.
heh...
yupp.
SO today...
gonna go watch movie with JIN.
will blog abt it when i come home later.
RIGHT...
okay okay.
enough of this post i shall go...
FLY AWAY.

*& i love you darling, let's fly away together*

pics on last day of exams

2007-10-11T17:20:00.000-07:00

PICS on the day we went SUNTEC. >.< enjoy
my spasm people. DO NOT MAKE FUN IF UR A HATER!

OMFG i didn't know daddy stole a shot of meh! xD

LOL. playing drum mania BABY!

Why do i care to concentrate so hard? DAMMIT.

That's like the backview of meh playing drums. xD
LOL.

OMFG. i look so spaz man playing the drums.
cheryl's behind playing the guitar.
we were playing same songs... WOOHOO! xD

LOOK at muh tongue ain't it bloodyhell adorable?

MWA! i wanna kiss you father. >.<

DADDYkins i love you truckloads. xD

2007-10-11T04:53:00.000-07:00

Today's last exam rocked.
hmmm not really.
the day rocked not the paper.
LOL.
firstly i went home to change
& met tasha daddy & shiying & carmen
at serangoon mrt station.
I WAS APARENTLY COLOURFUL.
haha.
& very outstanding I must say.
they were all wearing black.
so like yeaaaa.
WAHA! xD
then we went to plaza sing.
ate at kfc.
i had zinger burger & cheese fries.
ain't that yummy? yes yes.
YUM YUM.
haha.
cheryl came after awhile.
Dawn & Sheena (boyfriend)
went to bugis first.
so we went to the arcade first at dhoby.
you know the one near pc bunk?
well,
yes yes.
we para para-ed
HAHA.
i learnt.
then we played DDR.
fun man...
but i lost to cheryl countless times.
I haven't played those since like
p5?
OMG luh...
embarrassing.
PEOPLE were watching us.
But i didn't care man.
i got down and started boogy-ing.
WOOHOO!
see muh ass shake baby!
LOL.
not literally...
i won't shake meh ass anywhere else
besides a club
or like at HOME.
wahaha.
ASS SHAKING IN PUBLIC IS A NO-NO!
wakaka...
then we went to suntec city.
went to sumairu.
they have the NANA vivienne westwood lighter!
i want it man!
I WENT MAD SEEING IT!
i need to buy it...
dammit.
it's like 39 bucks i think.
i'm gonna save.
hopefully they dun run out of stock.
I LIKE IT.
i love NANA!
GOSH.
so anyway.
we went to the arcade at suntec too.
i played the drums.
not bad leh.
I GOT As and Bs
LOL.
yes yes.
STANDARD MODE.
better than stupid begginer mode luh.
SO FUCKING SLOW.
kns.
waste muh money on the friggin begginer mode.
WAHA.
cheryl was trying to win
the PSP.
omg so obvious that can't win on those
stupid foolish things.
BUT wad the heck she wanna try then let her loh.
Wakakaka!
nyaaaa~
then we ate at the manga cafe
or should i say drink?
LOL.
yes yes.
anyways, me & sheena went to
the toilet.
AND then ah.
the stupid toilet
i'm there trying to SHIT.
& like ppl keep flushing
then muh bloody toilet bowl
vibrating under my BACKSIDE.
wtf luh...
i know this is very obscene.
BUT I HAD TO SAY IT.
the toilet company should kena sued by meh
but sadly i haven't any money
of that sort.
SO WHATEVER.
i didn't get to SHIT in peace.
so i walked out of the toilet loh.
then went back to cafe.
DAWN went walking around the shops.
so i followed her,
after a few mins roaming around with her.
i realised my
fucking jeans was unzipped.
SO PAISEH luh.
i zipped it up quickly and blushed,
FREAKKKK!
so embarrassing mannn.
can't believe it.
so anyways.
tasha and the rest had to leave awhile after.
so meh & dawn hung out with cheryl first.
her dad came to buy GUY CLOTHES
for her.
he's so bloody supportive luh.
can't stand it.
LOL.
no offence to cheryl...
then we left cheryl & her daddy.
DAWN bought coffee.
it tasted yummy.
i stole sips
& the whipped cream tasted sooo GOOD.
haha.
creammmm.
& then we went walking around marina square.
they have cool stuff there.
i never realised.
thanks much to dawn
for showing meh stuffs.
>.<
& then we went home in the mrt.
DAWN's foot cramped loads of times.
POOR GIRL.
at least we got seats after awhile.
lucky us heh...
so we walked home tgt.
AWWWW
so sweet.
& we're all not going to school tmr.
HAHA.
we're lazy ppl.
SORRY LUH.
dammit.
i loved today.
can't wait til TASHA daddy uploads our pics.
I'M HAPPY!
JANisonHIGH. xD

*i still have you on my mind darling, you're never forgotten*

2007-10-08T04:52:00.000-07:00

Read these words i say speak them clearly.
& get this in your head boy,
like it or not,

I LOVE YOU
with my whole heart
and my whole soul.
you've taken each breathe away
so what more do you plan to take?
what can I do to make you mine
to make you stay here everytime
please tell me the words i long to hear
won't you whisper it into my ear?
i'll take a chance, what's there to fear.
cause after all I know you're near.
you make me smile with every single tear
that rolls down my cheeks and stains my face
it's you i wanna hold and embrace.
don't leave me alone like i was before i found you
life's never been better since the day you arrived.
god sent you in a jet plane,
all the way to me.
even if i were to walk away from you now,
this love is setting me free.
i'm willing to wait as long as you want
but know that the wait is a limited grant.
i can stand right here and wipe away every tear from your eyes.
please don't be afraid to cry.
cause no matter what you do
you can never change how i feel about you
you're beautiful to me,
inside and out
let me be the one to show you
what love is truly about.
you can give me a moment or your entire life
i'll make good use of the time and with you i'd strive.
strive for the best that i can be,
with you it doesn't matter if i can't see.
you're that bright light that's leading me out of darkness
let me be that hand that takes you out of here with me.
let's be together,
and we can be free.
free to be who we are on the inside.
i won't be afraid to show you me.
& you won't be ashamed to show who you are.
cause no matter what you are,
i'd love you all the same.
my dear boy,
my love for you is not a silly game.
i don't wanna play with you,
i wanna look after you.
i don't wanna make you cry,
i wanna dry your eyes.
i don't just wanna see you smile,
i wanna be the one who makes you laugh.
even if all this is for awhile
i'd thank god for even giving me the chance.
you're a great guy,
even if i don't deserve to get you.
whoever lands up with a guy like you
is the luckiest girl,
what i'm saying is true...
boy, take a look inside of you.
you're wonderful.
more beautiful than a simple melody
more amazing than the clouds in the sky
more bright than the stars in the twilight
more brilliant than the sunshine.
you're everything i wanted
all summed up into one.

if i could have you i'd be the luckiest girl in the world, for once in my life, just once.

*& i'd love to fly away with you everyday*

i love you more than anything boy

2007-10-07T22:49:00.000-07:00

I was bored so here are some random shit. (just read it already)

Call meh your supergirl.
Cause I wanna be the one to rock your world.
You can call meh supergirl.
Cause I know that I can rock your world.

I just wanna tell you today...
Boy, you rocked my yesterday.
& I want you to rock my everyday.

the moonlight will shine upon the likes of you and me,
and we'll dance our special dance under the sycamore tree.
let's walk in the sand with these sneakers on our feet.
we'll hold hands, we'll hug and our lips would meet.
a simple little rhythm that'll touch your soul.
it's coming from within my heart, strong and bold.
whisper "i love you" in my ear.
i want it only to be for me to hear.
let me hold your cheeks as you hold mine.
we'll stare in each others' eyes for all of time.
cause that's where i want you to be positioned forever.
right in front of me, it's now or never.
i know you hate how i always rhyme.
but baby remember it's for you, cause you're mine.

HEH. that one was lame. but it's sort of how i feel.
SO YEH!
live with it.
& people who hate JANA ANDREA PEREIRA.
should stop viewing her blog
& stop tagging her...
Cause she's bored with your lame words.
BORED AS HELL.
i'm not being rude.
i just wanna be respected.
THANK YOU.

*& i love the magic that's in you*

BORED POETRY

2007-10-05T19:06:00.000-07:00

I'm lying here in this empty room.
Thinking of the things we always do.
I wonder what caused that sudden boom,
which set off sparks between me and you.
Boy, I know you're strong
you don't need me here.
But I can't be wrong,
you need someone for sure...
It may not be me,
who lights up your life.
It doesn't matter much,
as long as i'm by your side.
I love seeing the smile you put on.
I like the silly things you do to make me laugh.
I enjoy hearing your voice on the phone.
Because even your silence,
makes me feel like this girl's not alone...
I love the way you look at me...
How I would blush and you wouldn't see.
I like the way you know how to touch my heart,
without doing anything, you played a part.
I might be difficult to understand at times,
because it's you, I long to tell.
I want you to try to figure me out.
And tell me what I'm really about.
I want to be there for you through everything.
Even if there's nothing,
just tell me I'm allowed to sit there.
Every single day I see your face,
more and more you can never be replaced.
Nothing else matters more to me than you.
You're a brand new melody
that sings my same tune.
You're the song that shares
my same point of view.
I've already fallen madly in love with you.
Tell me boy, what should I do.
Pls tell me you feel the same way too.

*& let me see your awesome smile*

PICS AGAIN.

2007-10-05T05:56:00.000-07:00

NEWLY UPLOADED PICTURES.
enjoy viewing people. xD

REFECTIONS... i'm afraid to be myself...
would you love me no matter what?

EMOKID TURNED WILD CHILD! xD

This is when I'm emo.
LIKE IT OR NOT. in your face!

KISS ME GOODBYE FRIEND.
cause i guess that's all i am to you...

I'm too sexaye for this TONGUE. xP

SHHH! DON'T SPILL THE BEANS JUST YET.
keep me in suspense baby that's what i need...

TWIST FOR THE CAMERA BABE. xD
cause you're sexy like this.

JAN & JIN & KEV

2007-10-05T05:14:00.000-07:00

Today was uber fun.
with JIN & KEV.
but i left my dearest kevin out.
NYAAAA~
i am so sorry BESTF.
i promise i'll make it up to you.
SMILES KAYS.
so anyway,
as usual JIN makes JAN laugh.
forever.
it's never ending, the magic he does...
he seems to put
a huge smile on my face
that nothing else can replace.
and i kept rhyming the whole time.
LOL.
made JIN jealous.
MY awesome poetry power.
EAT THAT BABY!
LOL.
i'm on high talking to JIN.
just asked me what i'm doing
& i was like,
ooh blogging.
YEAP.
he is my happy pill
& i love him very much.
HAHA.
i said it.
there you go...
LOL.
woohoo...
i am officially nuts.
AND many thanks to JIN
for treating me to bicycle rental
and ice cream
and and 100 plus!
Wo0tz mannnn.
you make me smile
all the time.
Wonder how you do it,
but whatever it is,
it's working really really well on me.
HAPPY PILL & GIRL ON HIGH.

*& oh you got me laughing kid*

2007-10-04T00:50:00.001-07:00

AND i'll be your little

froggy pj girl if only you'd ask me too.

& if you'd look a little closer,
it says "kiss me" all over my pjs.

What you looking at? I know my
tongue's sexaye like that.